all about love

All or Nothing

2010-03-05T00:17:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Mjv90uwusQ

They can play "let's pretend"
Make 'em like them my best friend
Telling their lies
And they can scheme behind my back
Make fiction not a fact
Try to re-write my life

But they ain't got a clue
If I were in their shoes
I'd shut right up

Take me as I am
Or not at all
I ain't ever gonna change myself for no one
No compromise
'Cause it's my life
It's all or nothing.

They can laugh all they like
Got no need to justify
I am who I am
And they can do their worst if they dare
If it makes them happy we don't care
It's out of their hands

'Cause they ain't got a clue
If we were in their shoes
We'd shut right up

Take us as we are
Or not at all
We ain't ever gonna change ourselves for no one
No comprosmise 'cause it's our life
It's all or nothing.

Take me as I am
Or not at all
I ain't ever gonna change myself for no one
Not compromise 'cause it's my life
It's all or nothing.

2010-02-07T11:42:00.001+08:00

goodbye blogger. hello wordpress. reason for switching, because blackberry supports wordpress postings and there is an app for wordpress but not blogger.

new wordpress site,

www.windowtolife.wordpress.com

2010-01-24T09:14:00.001+08:00

Singapore is not the best place. i agree. but that does not mean that you have to put your own country down, or even the countrymen down. especially in front of other singaporeans.

Singapore may not be the best place to stay in or to develop ideas, we may be very structured and focus on education. but not all Singaporeans are stuck in the structure. Not all singaporeans conform you see.

Singapore may not be all in all as good as other country, but what happened to Singaporean's pride. what happened to country's loyalty. Singapore has provided you for you to grow up, even if you don't like who you are now because of the system here, the least you can do is not to put Singapore/Singaporeans down with your words. this is like biting the hands that fed you. and its not very nice especially when you expressed yourself out like that in front of other singaporeans. yup, you can be fancy free. but pls don't talk bad abt others in front of them?

Its not perfect/liberal here. but because I am born here, and because I am a Singaporean, I will love my country. Breaking free from its structure, but yet building a better Singapore.

Seeking first the Kingdom of God

2010-01-04T22:47:00.001+08:00

seek <b>first </b>the kingdom of God and His Righteousness and <b>all</b> these things shall be added to you.

Draw me, O draw me away. I long to dwell in the house of the Lord forever. I pray that I will never leave His house, but always staying in it, staying close to Him, and always longing for His presence. I pray I will never become cold, but always on fire for God. I don't ever want to leave His presence, ever!

2009-12-26T08:02:00.000+08:00

this christmas has been quite an interesting one.. i did receive presents, but its all the stuff that people would give to any other person.. biscuits, chocolates and the likes. i did receive a well-made card by one person. and saw 6 friends responding to the altar call. time for follow-ups. =)

last christmas i saw myself receiving much more christmas cards and such, and this year less. maybe because more people are getting attached? ;)

but heck, the season's not about me. its about Jesus' birthday! =) last night, before i fell asleep, my last words were, happy birthday Jesus. with a smile. Christmas must mean something more.

Upper Room

2009-12-14T17:22:00.000+08:00

I have been really blessed. all my birthday wishes are really coming true.

1. portable amp. ++ new guitar, strap, bag

2. headphones. ++ sunglasses

3. new shirts. ++ new jeans

Indeed God is able to do much more than what we ask for. all the "++"es are not my birthday wishes, but indeed they have been added onto me. God is really good and faithful, and as I put His kingdom first, all these things were added onto me. wasn't easy to put His kingdom first though, its a sacrifice.

just because I didn't flow that well with the worship leader doesn't reflect my quiet time with God. Somehow someone just thought there was a correlation, but my relationship with God is for no one but God. I do not boast about my quiet time with God, neither do I want to attribute my successes that I had to the quiet time that I had with God, but its by God's grace that I am able to achieve those stuff. my quiet time with God is just simply to seek God and His presence, to be renewed and recharged daily. To lift my prayer request to Him and to daily submit myself to Him. I don't give credit to my quiet time, but to my God, His grace abounding for the good works in my life. It is in no rights of any man or woman to judge another person's quiet time.

but speaking of quiet time, just a point of reflection. How's your upper room doing? For some, perhaps its due for a spring cleaning, dusty and with cobwebs everywhere. for some, its speck and span. How's yours doing?

The upper room is where you seek God and where you meet God face to face. Body, soul and spirit involvement in seeking and it is where the glory of God dwells. It is where the solutions to our problems lies, and where we encounter God, we can find comfort, peace and love of God, where Rhema manifests and where the whole world just fades and its just you and God. everyone have got their own upper room. maybe they call it in a different name. secret place, prayer closet etc. but its one and the same.

so, how's your upper room? perhaps its time to visit there once again, and be consistent in that. perhaps the buzz of life has taken over your time to visit that place again. set aside time to visit that place once again. you'll be amazed at what you'll find in there.best of all, it is at where you are. you don't need talents, you don't need skill. all you need is a willing heart, an open, sensitive, patient heart. its a whole new way of living when you set your heart on seeking and pleasing God.

i'll just side-track a bit. God is amazing, being able to turn situations around. what seems to be a bad thing turned to good. arguments turn into a strengthened faith in God, sickness turned into seeing the truth of life and turning to God, ridiculing turned into an opportunity to share faith with friends. I stand in amazement just looking at all the things that has been happening around me and thanking God for them. a calculative brother becomes generous. and one that is so distracted, so curious about so many things now focusses on his vision. so much has happened this year, but I believe there is more to come. 2009 has been a year of great change, but 2010 is gonna be a greater year yet. gonna take the campus by storm =)

Phil 2:14-16

2009-12-11T10:52:00.001+08:00

Phi 2:14-16

Do all things without complaining or disputing, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without a fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast the word of life, so that I may rejoice in the day of Christ that I have not run in vain or labored in vain.

Many of us have always said that we want to be the salt and light in this generation. What is the key? “do all things without complaining or disputing…” What does it actually mean to be complaining and disputing? Does this mean that we bottle up our emotions, suck our thumbs and go and do it? Let’s break things down.

What is the true essence of complaining?

Complaining is an attitude that one has when trapped in a situation. There are the complainers of Israel, because of their complaints; a whole generation was denied the Promised Land. Hear the disciples complain to Jesus, “Jesus, look, the storms are here and you are still sleeping!” or “We’re too tired, can’t pray with you for an hour…”

Complaining is having a passive attitude of defeat, of a battle being lost even before it has been fought. It is a cry of helplessness, and the only way of expressing it out is through complaints. It is a non-participating stand, whereby the circumstances has control and the complainer does not have control over their circumstances, thus allowing their circumstances to defeat them.

We are born to be more than conquerors. We are in a new generation whereby old things have past, and all things are made new. If God is with us, who can be against us? We are meant to rule and reign with Christ in the new Age. There is nothing, there is no one that can/would bring us down. You are a ruler over your circumstances, not your circumstances ruling over you. Your response reflects on your attitude. Know this, that God will never put you through something that He knows will break you, that He knows you cannot take.

So, instead of saying, “why is my leader like that?”, say “what can I do to work together with my leader for the ultimate good of the cell group?”. Instead of saying, “I can’t help it. I was born with this condition. I am still trying to overcome this area. I can’t help feeling like this. I have a tendency to do this kind of thing”, rather say “what can I do to further overcome these areas. What can I do to breakthrough. What can I do to bring growth?” In essence, the opposite of complaining is involvement. Get involved with the things around you, get engaged. Engage your circumstances and have a conquerors mindset, that nothing is going to bring me down, because I have got God on my side. Never become a complainer. Become a victor of your circumstances. Don’t be a passive complainer, be an active player, an agent of change in your environment.

Coming to the next point, what is disputing?

Is disputing disagreement? Is disagreements and differing opinions wrong? As a matter of fact, I learnt a lot from disagreements. Because each and everyone has their own differing opinions, they bring a new perspectives to things, thus giving me a wider perspective on certain issues.

However disputes are more than just disagreements or having differing opinions. Disputes are disagreements taken to a higher level. It is when these disagreements replaces the priority of relationships. Definitely in relationships there will be disagreements and different opinions, but it is when you decide to put aside these differences, to come to a common understanding that, though we have differing opinions, we can still be friends. That is why it is ok to have non-Christian friends, or even friends from another religion.

But when people put their differences, or what they see wrong in another person, above forming a relationship with them, it is when disputes happen. Disagreements does not tear any group apart. Disagreement does not break up relationships. Disputes does. When people cannot tolerate each other’s differences, there is dispute.

People need to know that though there may be disagreements, attitudes, values or beliefs that they may not approve, they can still be friends; it is a relationship can happen. And it is only through relationship that a change can take place. God is not against disagreements or challenging opinions, no. What He’s against is people putting these differences, putting these issues above building a relationship, thus hindering the unity of the group/friendship.

Attitudes have to change. Bad habits have to go. New habits have got to replace them. It is a simple lesson, yet it takes much effort to break out of the old habits/mindsets/thinking and to embrace God’s way of living. In all we do, we must not be complainers (having a passive, negative attitude of the situation around) but doers (active players in making the most out of every situation and emerging victorious from it). We must not have disputes (placing disagreements or differing beliefs/opinions above relationships) but it is ok to have disagreements. In this we will become blameless, harmless children of God, without a fault, in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, shining as lights in the world. Amen.

2009-11-06T00:42:00.001+08:00

2009-11-02T22:48:00.001+08:00

2 more days til my bamboo comes! =)

2009-11-01T13:35:00.003+08:00

2009-11-01T13:35:00.001+08:00

I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY BAMBOO PEN TO COME!!! AHHH! look forward to my next blog post. it is gonna be "BOOMZ!" hahaha

2009-10-21T21:45:00.001+08:00

my blog is so growing cobwebs now...

weekend service

2009-10-04T10:40:00.001+08:00

weekend service was awesome!

the praise and worship by the children church side were awesome. presence of God was so tangible when they lead us.. =) unbelievable!

Pastor talked about the last shall be first and the first shall be last part 2! was awesome! talked about the people who needs spiritual healing. 

the married, the parents, the rich, the poor and those who are serving in church. the last two really caught my attention, because i didn't realise that they too may have some hurts that are unresolved.

and the only way to be healed is to come back into the presence of God, and to start loving once again. i think its a good wake up call. let's start the love revolution, ya? =)

speaking of which, was great going swimming with jon goh and janet and pei en! =) though there wasn't much to play, but still, it was fun! 

and the day before, minds cafe! lol. very fun! so fun that i even bought the monopoly deal set! i brought to the hanging out at simei after service and felt it was great fun!

but i hope more than fun, it will bring the whole cell group together. which is why we are going to have... games day!! 2 weeks from now, all the games gonna come out, and we'll have a great deal of fun playing =) can't wait..

now i really wish for a camera so i can record all these wonderful events! =) can't wait for more!! =)

cell group outing

2009-10-03T10:47:00.001+08:00

yesterday marks a very wonderful cell group outing. though its only the 5 of us, we had so much fun man! =) more to come ahead! =D

we went to minds cafe, and only played one game. but that game was super fun! its called, monopoly deal! if you haven't try it, pls do so. its an awesome game to play!

later on going swimming with janet, pei en and jon! can't wait! lol! =) hope the weather holds though..

2009-09-30T17:18:00.001+08:00

Overnight prayer meeting

2009-09-30T13:32:00.001+08:00

Last night was a great overnight prayer meeting. we started at 9pm and ended at 3am. really felt great, because for me personally its about coming back to the first love with God once again.

I don't mind going for more overnight prayer meetings because of encounters as such =) looking forward to our next one! =)

and guess what? immediately after the opm, i had a computing test at 10am! so was quite zombified during the test, but still manage to pull through. hopefully i'll be able to do good =)

I'm back on the joy and the high that i ride on in school. but more than that, its about the connection between us and God that makes the overnight pm worth-while. 

what an interesting 3 days for me.  27th celebrating my 21st birthday at sentosa. 28th spending my birthday in school studying and taking a maths test at night. 29th overnight prayer meeting and folding stars. 30th test! hahaha. when i look back, i really wonder how i survive man =)

This blog post is from my widget

2009-09-29T13:11:00.001+08:00

This is so cool! its so much easier to blog now with this mac dashboard widget! =)

now i'm in school having a cold.. studying for tmr's CS1101S test.. doing past year papers..

sunday went to sentosa to celebrate birthdays!! =) it was so awesome that i actually missed the time spent there! let's go east coast more often! alternative to sentosa.. =)

birthday wishlist

2009-09-24T23:59:00.004+08:00

as requested by my good buddy wendy ang **** **, here is the wishlist for my 21st birthday!

u know what? i don't really know! but here are some guesses as to what is in my head!

clothes! clothes are good.

but not the normal tee-shirt polo-shirt kind.. if you wanna get me clothes, get me sth that will make me look smart, slick and fit.

perhaps something that will make me look like a sharp techie guy, or music guy, or something rough, fierce, something that goes "boomz".. these are the 3 kinds of looks that i'm thinking of achieving. i also need one for church. maybe checkered long sleeves shirt? cargo pants? maybe a denim jacket or leather jacket or felt kinda jacket? nice accessories? these are some suggestions.. =)

tech stuff! =) tech stuff are cool too..

perhaps a wireless mouse for my laptop? or Jabra BT530 bluetooth adapter ? =) mini speakers too! =) those kind that can be compressed into a ball, (in miss ris low's words, "you know"). hmm.. what about something for my ipod! you know, like an apple universal dock for my ipod, you know, like yah.. you know, along this line =) and just in case, for the girls who don't know what i'm talking about, just bring any guys out to a tech shop. they sure know what to buy =)

music stuff would be cool too! =)

a mini amp? something like example 1 or example 2 or example 3 =) if you get example 3 for me, my gosh.. =))) a new violin case will help too! =) but that's kinda ex, like 70 dollars? how i know? because i just changed mine 1 year ago and its starting to spoil! argh! i don't know what else that i would need! oh yes, how about a violin teacher, and a guitar teacher for me? =) i sure need one! yes, and you've guessed it, those are the two instruments that i'm playing. get anything for my babies will do. one is called Christabelle, that is my violin.. my guitar does not have a name..

school stuff.. hmmm.. haha. loads of files? more books? something to do my readings for me? i would need a room make-over.. hahaha. looks like nothing for my studies =) except good grades and perhaps your prayers =) yes, and if possible, a study kaki.. =)

this are my wishlist. lol. something more personal? a girlfriend? haha we'll see... ... =)

yours truly,

victor chan

p.s. you know something.. i just feel that i've a lot of expectations for my 21st birthday. i mean, like, party and all. i don't usually hold parties for my birthday.. so i just wanna say sorry for letting all down on your expectations.. there's nothing big and "boomz" that is going to happen on my birthday. its just the mid terms test that's going "boomz". but i'm open for dinner? =D

2009-08-29T00:46:00.001+08:00

new blog post...

soon.. been really crazy time for me.. maybe tmr? =D keep you in suspense first, whoever that chance upon this..

Egg-citing week! =)

2009-08-21T00:20:00.000+08:00

this week has been a super exciting week for me!!

Monday

first, monday! super cool day! hahaha. for the first time, didn't have to wake up so early. can sleep in on a weekday! cool huh. haha. not used to it. but got to keep the momentum there la! hahaa

school was awesome! loving my CS1101 even more! and especially my SSA lesson! didn't understand a single word lecturer was saying lol. but after reading the notes again and again, finally grasp what she was saying! its like, what my friend would say, an "enlightenment". lol. anyway, during lecture we watched the full movie "Bujang Lapok". super funny, its a malay b/w movie with subtitles! love it. now got to do a reflection of the movie though. about how the camera play a part in sending the message behind the message etc etc.. haha

also learnt the basics of "film-ology". lol. learnt a lot of new words "Mise-en-scene" and stuff. cool!! =) wide pan! whip pan! frying pan! lol. no, no frying pan. but its cool! =) gives me a broader view as to how the camera and character and clothes and lighting and sounds all play a part in portraying a certain message.

The first thing that the lecturer talked about was "Why is singapore film called singapore film, and not singaporean film? why is it singapore idol and not singaporean idol?". intimidating. but after her explanation, i finally understand! LOL!!

at night, went for sign language class. was cool, learnt more new words. BUT i lost my notes!! rawr!! hope to find it back again. lol.

Tuesday

second. tuesday! awesome man. after lesson, was suppose to study with violet and huishan

ended up talking more than studying! we MUST focus ar! =) haha celiana crashed our party too! had fun talking to her!! =) she's so smart and awesome!! and she took SSA2218 before!! =) i can ask her for help for that module! =D

it was this time that NUS IT CO-OP decided to give me a call and told me the laptop was ready for pickup wednesday! but wed i have no school.. but because i really want the laptop, i booked an appointment for wednesday. =D initially expected date of arrival is 4th sept. it brought forward by 1 1/2 weeks! amazing!! it was a pleasant surprise for me. =)

night! went for choir pract! was a crazy rush down to church haha. had a crazy bus ride with violet too! lol. we talked about really random stuff.

choir pract was.. erm.. interesting.. chinese performance! cool! but i just wanna say this. the lady, guest singer who came to practice with us? she's really good. i love her voice! =)

Wednesday

went to sch just to collect laptop. hahaha. =)

after that went to set up my laptop with my school network and attempt to connect my new macbook pro to the printer.. but all in vain.. not the macbook's fault. school printer.

after trying a while, and doing the rest of the school's administrative installation onto my com, went down to mellinia walk to meet up with my pei en and vanessa.

Studied studied. must say, more fruitful than on tuesday =) hahaha studied for about 7 hours plus. went down to mc to get ice cream (it was about 10 at

that time already..) hahhaha. oh ya! during studying the time, we took lots of photos!! hahaha. this is my fav! =D

the rest of the photos are on facebook. =)

Thursday

Today! finally we reach today! hahaha. morning, what did i do? i went down to school for sociology class. Cool huh! love the lessons, love the module. i beginning to appreciate my subjects! =) you've got to love sociology man. i love the lecturer too! its a mindset, its an attitude, but more than that, its sth that i alone am not able to have on my own ability! =D love sociology hahaha

evening was great too! hahaha. went down for the video and photog committee talk! i think i wanna do video. sounds fun, and its sth new! =) videography! here i come! =) edit edit edit!

since it was so late, i decided to head down to COM1 to print my notes. and FINALLY! i manage to print my first piece of document! after 2 weeks of figuring it out, finally!! =D and in amidst of the excitement, suddenly, thunder! i was trapped in NUS with pouring cats and dogs on the outside! rawr! ok print more notes, wait for rain to stop. print finish, rain no stop! rawr!, bought an umbrella from the vending machine (umbrella's orange! gosh!). haha chiong home!

I found out that iPhoto helps you to "automatically" tag your photos on facebook! cool huh! =D

yup, so here's the long awaited blog post! =D i hope i am able to update more regularly, and with more photos too! =D lol. cheers!

MUST thank violet for giving me two gifts!! really appreciate it a lot!

1. capo! for my guitar! i always wanted to get one, but other stuff seems to eat away my budget so yup. thanks violet!

2. Apple remote! cool! my first time using it, and its awesome! i can control my laptop itunes from my bed, which is opposite my room! cool! thanks violet! =)

i think i've been mentioning a lot about violet. to readers, don't think too much k? =)

lastly, i want to reiterate. APPLE is SOOO COOL! peace out! cheers! =)

14th Aug 2009 CGM CGC preaching! =)

2009-08-15T11:43:00.000+08:00

written by our very own beloved citynews writer wendy ang

The cgcs got to preach today and here's what impacted me the most and some of my thoughts:

@ Victor: "Being human means having the ability to restrain emotions." I never saw it in that light, thanks for the revelation! :)

@ Jamie: "We sacrifice because we are thankful to God." The sacrifice you made to go to prayer meeting in the morn, travel to the east to meet yr connect grp in the east and write your 30-page report is admirable and an inspiration to me! =) "Thankfulness without action is fake! " Wow! :) :)

@ Francis: Loved the breakdown of Heb 12 about Paul's sufferings and the JOY of course, both the joy of Francis and focusing on the joy of the Lord . Hehe!

@ Vann: Quote: "Maturity also encompasses being aware of the correct time and place to behave and knowing when to act in serious or non-serious ways. " Thanks for letting me understand more what maturity is about. :)

@ Everyone: I forgot to add in the last part of my msg that like what Zoe shared last wk in cgm, the rewards we receive will far outweigh the price we have to pay in order to achieve success in every area of our lives, esp. in our outreach ... So let's have faith and let's run this race together! =)

THANKS EVERYBODY for making the meeting great today. Had a blast and I especially enjoyed the fellowship we had in that short 2 to 3 hrs! Many more to come! =) =)

Xoxo!

cheers!

Finally got down to blogging

2009-08-15T01:46:00.000+08:00

here I am! =) gonna blog about a few things.. 1. first day of school, 2. movie "up", 3. SOT commissioning and 4. today!! =D

1. first day of school

first day of school was awesome man. my first lesson was CS1101, basics of computing. it was erm.. interesting. everything i learnt before already in computing in JC. i was complaining to Wash that why must i take this when i've already take

n computing in JC. He told me he didn't have to take CS1101 cuz he took computing in JC! i was like, what the... ...

den he told me, oh must take advance standing test! it was the one that i missed out! all computing students from JC are eligible for the test and i missed it out! those who passes the test do not have to take CS1101! rawr! was so frustrated with myself. but thankfully, he told me the advantages of taking CS1101 even though i learnt all the stuff in JC, is that i can bo

ost my CAP score!! amazing right? so cool! ok can't be complacent. gonna excel in CS1101!!! =)

after that, a super boring maths lecture, but lecturer's very interesting! started lesson proper at 4:20, ended lesson at 5. the original time table was that to end lesson at 6. in effect, he gave us 1 hour off!! =) so cool right!! =)

there was a 4 hours break in between where we (me, violet, hui shan) just hang, hang hang arnd! hahaha. when tutorials come in we won't be so free le!! wee.

at night, had choir pract. we learnt a few chinese songs. that sounds like opera songs! hahaha. so fun right!! modern opera, quite catchy, i like.. =)

2. movie "up"

wednesday i went to catch the movie "up". was super nice! i like the story line, i like the animation. i even learnt how to do the old man's face! lol! haha. i love it! 5 stars from me, highly recommended to watch. cool movie, i love it!

and just a tip for movie manic, do not put your popcorn box in the cup holder. it can't hold the popcorn box that well. ;)

3. SOT commissioning

On thursday, we had our SOT commissioning by the pastors. was really good, no message, flow with the Spirit, and it was awesome! feel so empowered now to do greater things for God! yea! bringing revival to NUS! =) impartations, tears, and encounters were established in the house of God on thursday! it was so awesome. today i'm graduating from SOT, i've got to sustain this fire within. =) got to be discipline. got to keep my passion going strong =)

4. today!!

Today is an awesome day! thank God its friday!!! TGIF! =)

morning went for prayer meeting. wendy came! omgosh i never expect her to come for JW morning prayer meeting. signs of things to come! =D haha. had breakfast with my cell grp peepz who came for morning pm. =D

after SOT lesson, rushed down to NUS to fix my laptop to the network printer. i tell you, its impossible man. haha. tried my best but couldn't. with the help of the staff there still couldn't. i'll try another day..

gosh my dad's buying a macbook pro for me!! prayers come true man. its not about the laptop, but the relationship with him. =) i'm really happy cuz its a dream come true. and i've never thot that he will buy it for me! =D actually wanna ask my mum to loan money first, den my dad says, victor, you need a laptop right? how much? you go find out how much tell me. HE never ever say that before. its a miracle, a blessing! wow amazing right? =)

so.. after trying a while to fix my lappy, i went to check out the price of the macs in NUS and sms my dad! now i'm just waiting for the order to come (14 working days) so that i can collect my macbook pro!!!! awesome!! =)) happy. =) really thank my dad and God for unmerited favors. its really amazing, if you know my family environment that i was brought up it. got to continue praying for their salvation, that's my ultimate heart's desire. =) 14 working days, means about 3rd sept like that it will come!! cool huh! =) thank God for it! =)

after math lecture, went down to simei for cell grp.. had an interesting talk with benny, heard his opinions about some issues and i agree with him on most of the points. =)

cell grp was interesting, after a short time of praise (very interesting praise), each of the cgc took turns to preach. suppose to preach for 7 minutes each, but i guess 7 minutes is too little to express the burdens in our hearts so in the end exceeded by a lot, each one of us! but good thing is that, our message had a flow! the order of preaching was by lots, and guess what, i was the first to preach! so nervous man. but as i warmed up, it became more comfortable =) was cool! =) took down notes from the other cgc s as well =)

after cell grp, rushed home because it was super late, no much time for supper. so we took a train home. on the train fellowship. =)

looking forward to 28.8.09 cell grp! its gonna be great, gonna be fun, gonna be different, creative and interesting! let's do it gang! =D

cheers!

victor

2009-08-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

happy national DAY everyone!

tmr NUS is starting already. freshies everywhere are having a nervous breakdown of the fear of being unprepared. hmm, will i be like one of them? probably! hahaha we'll see how tmr!! scarryy..

today just watch GI Joe with talking hands peepz.. super fun!!! =D love/enjoy going out with them!

i better sleep already, tmr still got morning pm and out the whole day gosh.

See ya! cheers! all the best all the freshies out there.

National day message

2009-08-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

NATIONAL DAY MESSAGE 2009

My fellow Singaporeans,

Singapore has had a turbulent and challenging year. In January, dark clouds had gathered all around us. Our economy was hit by the worst storm in our history. Exports went down by a third, and manufacturing too declined sharply, since we produced for world markets. Given this backdrop, we projected GDP to shrink this year by 6% to 9%.

We couldn't have avoided the storm, but we didn't passively resign ourselves to fate. Instead, we mobilized Singaporeans to tackle the crisis together. We brought the Budget forward to January, implemented a Resilience Package, and drew on past reserves to help fund the Special Risk Sharing Initiative and the Jobs Credit.

We are now in a stronger position. The global economic situation has somewhat stabilised. Our measures have cushioned workers from the worst of the storm. Our economy was amongst the worst hit, and yet we still have one of the lowest unemployment rates in the world. Singaporeans too have responded resolutely and cohesively. These factors helped the Singapore economy to bounce back strongly in the second quarter. As a result, growth in the first half of the year was -6.5%, a very significant contraction, but less bad than we had feared. Hence we have revised up our growth projection for 2009. Our economy will still shrink, but only by between 4% and 6%.

But it's too early to celebrate. The outlook remains clouded. The advanced economies aren't expected to bounce back soon. Our exports remain much lower than last year, and companies like SIA are still facing very tough conditions. We might see another wave of retrenchments later in the year. So we must stay on guard for more challenges to come.

Beyond this year, we expect the global situation to remain difficult for some time. But the adverse external environment doesn't mean that Singapore cannot grow. We can and must look for new ways to develop and prosper. Opportunities still exist, especially in Asia, but we need all our ingenuity and resourcefulness to find them and exploit them.

Businesses and workers are already adjusting to the new world. Many firms are changing their business processes, finding innovative ways to cut costs and generate revenues, and aggressively seeking out new markets. Workers are taking advantage of the SPUR programme to upgrade their skills and retrain for new fields. The unions are cooperating closely with employers to adapt to the changed conditions, instead of resisting change. We must keep this up.

In the midst of recession, as we tackle the immediate challenges, we must also look to the future. The Economic Strategies Committee is studying how we can transform our economy. The Committee will examine how Singapore can find new opportunities, build new capabilities, sustain balanced growth and overcome our constraints. We are involving the private sector, to gather the best ideas that can enable us to prosper. I am confident the Committee will have good proposals when it reports next year. Our responses in this crisis will ensure that once the US and Europe emerge from their troubles, and the world economy recovers, Singapore will forge ahead again in a dynamic Asia.

Up close, our current difficulties may appear daunting; but we should see them against a longer perspective. It's been 50 years since we attained self-government in 1959. Over this half century, Singapore has encountered many serious challenges – racial riots in the 60s, oil shocks in the 70s, a major recession in the 80s, the Asian Crisis in the 90s, the 9/11 attacks and SARS in this decade. Each time our people have rallied and prevailed, and hence Singapore has continued to thrive and prosper, and has arrived here today.

We didn't start out as one people. Our forefathers were different peoples from different lands, who had come to Singapore to seek better lives for themselves and their children. But our formative years fighting for independence, then striving as a new nation to survive against the odds, brought us all closer together. Each time we were challenged, we responded as one, everyone pulling together and working for the common good. And each success further cemented our cohesion, and helped us to meet the next challenge.

We are doing this again in this crisis. Everyone of us – government and people, employers and unions – is working together, keeping companies viable and competitive, preserving jobs and livelihoods, and enhancing social safety nets like Workfare and ComCare. This crisis may be a severe test, but our history and record give us confidence that we will once again turn it into an opportunity to strengthen our social compact, and upgrade our economy.

We've responded to the outbreak of Influenza A(H1N1) in the same way. We worked hard to delay and slow down the spread of the new virus in Singapore. Our efforts depended not only on the healthcare system and professionals, but also on citizens being vigilant and socially responsible. We bought ourselves precious time to learn more about the virus and gear up our defences.

Whether fighting the recession or the flu, we made sure every Singaporean knows he's not alone, but that the community and country are behind him.So long as you make the effort and do your best, the rest of us will help you to pull through.

This unity is key to our success in many fields. We must work hard to strengthen it, and to bridge potential divides within our society, be it between Singaporeans and new arrivals, between rich and poor, or most fundamental of all, between the different races and religions. We often see ethnic strife and religious conflicts in other countries. This last year alone, we've witnessed the Mumbai terrorist attacks, and the recent bombings in Jakarta. In Singapore we have to respect each other's cultures, practices and beliefs, build trust and harmony between our communities, and gradually enlarge the secular common space which all groups share. In this way, we can become one people, one nation, one Singapore.

We are well placed to deal with these challenges. We are not just pursuing economic growth, or strengthening our society, or remaking our city, but creating a new Singapore.

We are improving our living environment, and developing better amenities for the community, more green spaces and park connectors. We are creating more avenues for students to advance and opening up more opportunities to go to university. We are building new hospitals, improving step-down care, and making healthcare more accessible and affordable to all. We are also revitalising the city – upgrading housing estates all over the island, refreshing our downtown into a premier shopping and entertainment venue, and creating a new skyline around Marina Bay, which is taking shape day by day.

My fellow Singaporeans, in the half century since we attained self-government, we've been tested many times, but we've also created many possibilities for ourselves. Let us stand shoulder-to-shoulder, so that whether it rains or shines, we can work together and achieve the best results for Singapore. This is how we build a better and more vibrant nation, and make Singapore a special place that we are all proud to call our home.

I wish all Singaporeans a very Happy National Day.

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SOT grad dinner

2009-08-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

Hi! i just came back from SOT grad dinner.

SOT is really a turning point in my life. it really SOrT-ed out a lot of my life. there are a lot of things that i had to let go, a lot of things that i have picked up, and even more things that i have found freedom in. One of which is freedom from the opinions of others.

anyway, really, things can only get better, and i believe though trials and tribulations may come, distractions may pull, but always my heart will always be drawn to the One.

knowledge is power, but the most important things that i've taken back is not just knowledge, but ginosko (experiential knowledge). knowing by experience, presence of God, knowing by experience, moving in the Spirit etc. I never wanna lose this spark (NOT you, but i've notice the tendency to slack off after SOT), and I just wanna do more for God.

When times i'm stagnent, I'll ask God to break me even more, to bring me to new adventures, or to even open new opportunities for me. Else spiritual life could be such a bore without adventures with the Holy Spirit. =)

Of cuz, the most important is the relationships forged in SOT. i'll really miss team 21, and the people in it, after we grad.. =( but really glad to know pastors from overseas (e.g. pst peter from korea..) and many fun and outgoing people (moxi, jess, vanessa liew, vanessa ng, jeremy liang ... ... ... ... and a lot more!) when we sang the closing song, "that's what friends are for", i just kept thinking of all the friends that i've made during the past 4 /12 mths, and i believe that we'll go from glory to glory together, yea? =) note to self. keep in touch with all these friends =) they are the treasures in my life.

those who haven't go SOT, go for it! its not what you gain through the preaching, but what you will gain through the Holy Spirit. Cheers!! =)

P.S. note to self - post pictures once pictures are available for grabs on facebook.

2009-08-07T16:17:00.000+08:00

like i said in my previous post, today is another crazy day.

morning, went to school for cultural mandate test. easier than expected, but still hoping for e best!

after that, rush down to NUS for some talk. good thing i wasn't late! or rather, wasn't too late. the talks were boring, but informative. about overseas programme. KIV. year ones cannot go.

sat beside this girl named Nerissa. Yup she's singaporean. and interesting name, but nice person. we had lots of fun! playing tic tac toe, bingo, connect the dots. haha. and also, had lots of fun making fun of the presenters. oh well. Violet didn't come because she got fever =(

oh saw raymond too! SAJC ex soccer captain and my SAJC classmate! =) didn't get a chance to say hi to him because he is sitting really far from me =( but oh well. and of cuz, Joey and Wash! very fun to disturb them lol. but also, Joey is from SAJC too, the only one in the group intending to major in EC. cool huh.

after NUS rush down to JW for some course by Genecia, founder of InQueenz. very funny. she talked about her past dates etc etc... was really fun getting to know some dating tips from her ;) and in a very easy to remember method. CHARM. Cool!! =)

after that, long ride home and rest. Later going for SOT grad dinner. gotta dress my best. i'm going to start preparing at 5. ok maybe 5:30, den leave at 6. exciting to see all the SOT in their best! can't wait!! =D

Confessions of a Shopaholic

2009-08-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

Just watched finished this show confessions of a shopaholic on my com. super nice. i would rate it 5 out of 5. it is about this journalist who was a shopaholic, and how she got a job writing for a financial magazine, even though she's knee-deep in debts (and knowing nuts about finance management etc.) and how at the end of the day, she finds the key to her breakthrough. Its not in the steps that a program ask her to take, its about the mindset. That is one theme of this movie, being willing to let go.

and the other theme of the movie is to be truthful in all that we partake in. But one lesson i learnt here is, never belittle everyday encounters because that is what that can speak to the general mass the most. Because they too experience the same everyday encounters. and that is how she got the job as a finance journalist, even though she knew nuts about finances, she is willing to write finance principles in such a way that the general audience is able to understand, by using everyday experiences as an analogy/bridge to the reader's emotions. Its a fantastic movie, not some chick flick that i initially expected it to be. =) enjoy!

finally done studying my cultural mandate test for tmr. =) going to sleep. good nights. =)

Romans and Prayers test + Orientation Day 3

2009-08-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

Morning
Attended the romans and prayers test in the morning. reported to Jurong west building at 8am for duty. The test was... ... Interesting.. haha. quite tough as there was no text book and it was based on the notes that we had copied from the sermon. so was very interesting haha. but really hope can pass and not waste time retesting..

After that
rush down on my Runner (my scooter) to NUS LT 19 to attend talks after talks after talks. good that it ended off with a high. that the last speaker, who talked about facial products and was sent from Shiseido (with free gifts!), was a female (who apparently looks and sounds like tom yang. they could be sisters!) that told jokes in a very serious manner, which made it even more funnier. good presentation skills, and useful information, especially for the guys! ok, got to cleanse skin daily, and use toner. Raging Hormones LOL! =D Had fun nonetheless with Violet's iPod Touch! =D so fun!! hahaha. only during these kind of talks can play. normal lectures, no playing! got to control myself =)

after the whole orientation talked. celebrated Violet's birthday. This is a big one to Violet. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! hahaha. this is probably the only blog post so far where i used one person's name so many times. What a way to start uni, with your birthday. haha. =D

TMR is gonna be CRAZY!!
lemmie explain..

8am - 10am In church taking cultural mandate test
10am - 1pm In NUS attending talks
1pm - 3pm In church attending lessons/grooming course for guys for the grad night
3pm - 5pm At home grooming and preparing for grad night. prepare camera to take pics too! =D
5pm - LATE In Keppel Club for SOT grad night.

so its up all the way to church, den down to uni, den back to church, den home, den Keppel club. the traveling oh my gosh is so much. haha. But still looking forward to tmr!!! =D can't wait.

cheers!

Cousin's wedding + NUS orientation

2009-08-05T17:28:00.000+08:00

First off, presenting the union of two wonderful persons, handsome Jonathan and beautiful Janeal (who is my cousin). the ceremony was held in Grace Shah Alam church, and the dinner was in Blue Wave Hotel, at Shah Alam too, of course. what a fine couple they make. Secretly, I can't wait for their baby to join our family so we can have more kids to play with =) they'll be flying and staying in England but hope they'll fly back and visit us sometime =) aren't they lovely? =D

NUS orientation

I went for the package B SoC FOW. First day was on monday. Interesting.. played a few games and got to walk arnd the campus. Second day is today. Also interesting.. got to play a few games and use the Unix servers. basically package B is the basic package for those who do not wanna waste time playing games. haha. but still, got to meet a few friends. met this girl called Violet. Fun loving, cute girl too. loves photography and Mac. =) haha glad to know her. Also met this fun guy named Wen Jie/Edmund. nice, outgoing, charismatic. =) and Joey! who's also from SAJC, same batch. but weird is that i've never met him before.

Friday we're going to get our SoC FOW T-shirts!! =)) looking fwd to it! haha also camp on friday.. =D tmr, i have no idea what's gonna happen, but its gonna be just as fun man.. =)

New blogskin + updates + mission trip part 1

2009-07-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

I know its been such a long time since the last update.. been ignoring my blog for a while.. do continue to read my blog and look fwd to updates ya? =)

how do you like my blogskin? i just change it because it was quite hard to navigate in the previous skin. had to click on so many words. so i thot to myself, why not i just have a simple one where i can see the all my tags, my posts, my links, and even play music, all on the same page. so here it is. how's it? do you like it? =) I love it lots! =) theme : musique. cuz i love music!

oh one new function i added on this skin is the hit count. so i can see how many people actually visits my site. =) so cool right. yes it is. and now i can see how many people actually visits my site in a day =)

Recent events

Down with fever flu cough and muscle ache

i missed decentralized service and SOT because of this. sian. but i used the time to play my violin and guitar. improved quite a lot. =) now i can play pop songs on guitar! and violin, heal the world, last christmas etc =) got to practise more =D there is a song that i wanna play with anxian. let it remain a secret. =D

Mckayla Birthday 12 July 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY McKayla!!! you brought so much joy, without saying a word, to the whole of SOT batch 15 and everyone around you. You are going to become a great influence in society and in the life of the people around you, you bring joy. love you lots! =) happy birthday

to dom, issac. congrats for having such a lovely daughter! =) and great party too! great fellowship =D
i missed the games and the performance, but most of all, i missed mckayla lots! (pun intended) haha. but den i got to see her that day =) really cute and fun =D

played and fellowship is all we did. played and fellowship. balloons have never been so fun to play with lol. was a super fun party!! glad i rushed down for it =)

Dinner with Anxian

Had a great dinner with anxian. we talked about a lot a lot of things!! haha super fun to go out with him =) let's do it man! go out again soon =)

Val's 21st birthday party

hey val. happy 21st birthday. i knew you for about 3 years already, and you've grown so much. prettier and everything. i believe as we each take turn to pass this milestone, this is not a sign of achievement, but a sign of the things to come. i believe greater things are ahead of you. =) *sings for val* "greater things have yet to come. greater things are still to be done" can't wait to see the things that God has installed for us! =)

had lots of fun at your party. scooting la, or just talking and taking photos.

after a while, it got crazy. and it was about time we left. fellowship was great. =D
DING NENG!!!! OH NO!!

DING NENG!! you're BACK!! =D

pity i came late, cuz else i'd had more fun, but glad to be there =) thanks for the great party val. =)

Interlude - Random Chatter

sunday went watch harry potter with vann and marilyn and jon goh. disappointed with the movie.

am a great harry potter fan. ending too abrupt. but some people haven't watch yet. recommended to watch. i believe its the key to the success of the next part of the sequel. =D

cell grp message is on the series of "becoming a ________ christian"
Contagious(funny, that this is just during the H1N1 saga), Shocking and recently, Sustainable
I just hope that we will be able to apply what we've learnt instead of just hearing and doing nothing about it. else it may as well be a waste of time to come if we do not apply what we have learnt. i feel challenged. yes, no matter what comes against me. still I will hold on to my convictions. and apply the supernatural and natural into my life. =)

taken from Val's MacBook on the way to church from cell grp. everyone shld get a macbook ;) haha. i'm a mac supporter so don't mind me.

pic of the day in cg, our new friend mr bear. lol.

as you notice from the above pic, my hair is dyed brown, and trimmed. from black. for only 20+ dollars by the cousin of David Gan. haha. Auntie Irene. nice right. i likee.. =)

Pst Jeffrey from JPCC came to our church leader's meeting to preach. Talk about the different kinds of leadership. i feel so inspired. there is an impartation on that day. not just head knowledge or skills. i understand what i have to do already =) i have to inspire people. leaders inspire rather than drive. i have to inspire so that people will follow, and not the other way round.

performance practice was looooong! 3 hrs of standing with a 5 min break. tiring. went home with a fun grp of people. hahaha. don't know what we were talking about also, something about leg hair or something, but it was super hilarious! =D

had bs with jon ong on thursday. was great!! =D had lots of practical steps that we can take to build relationships/friendships with each other =D i also learnt a lot in teaching too. =)

BS with jon goh was awesome too! a lot of impartation! =D so glad there was a flow there. =) hope he'll revise though, else quite wasted.. =) can't wait for next lesson with him, where we'll do PnW before the lesson. =D

Met santy, weng lok and friends in church after the bs by chance. got to take photo with the super pretty santy =) and friends gave me a super cute sweet in a shape of a bear. take a look.

been scooting around on a scooter that aaryn lent me. =D its fast, its easy to set up and bring around, and its safe. =) so why not. haha fun, especially the down hill parts.

preaching test was on wednesday and thursday. take a look below. =) {yes we can!}

ytd after service taught sign language to a lady. from Philippines. she's really pretty =D and she's in my sign language class but she missed a few lessons so made up for her. gonna see her tmr! hahaha. hopefully. can't wait for sign language class tmr, to see teacher wee wee again. =)

had grad rehearsal after that. i role played as pastor. cool sia. shake all the graduating student's hands, giving them the cert etc. super fun. but ended at 11pm at expo. so can imagine how late i reach home. but at least got a few friends to accompany me. haha. what was said on the train home is confidential man. hahaha.

ok back to the recent events.

Uni registration
i am officially a NUS freshie. old birds come eat my flesh and drink my blood. not literally. hahaa. went through queue for 45 min just for 3 min of admin. and den went to explore the cca booth. *you want to tap your card here?* *you want to leave your email here and we can ask you for welcome tea?* plsss... just leave us alone.. we will approach you if we are interested. phlish. ok ok i know they're just doing their job to promote their cca, but it just got so irritating! haha. but saw a few familiar faces there =) so it ain't that bad =D

Debbie's Farewell

my beloved friend of 6 years.. =) going to aussie to the down and under land of the south for 3 years to study. oh man going to miss her sunshine she adds to the cg. not going to see her until next year, where we'll probably take a domestic flight from brisbane to melbourne to visit her. =) can't be there to send her off, but i'll be there in spirit. =D

we went to pasta fresca to eat. =) den we played a game called big fish small fish. haha kelvin lost in the end, and kena the forfeit of eating a slice of lemon. haha. before and after pic. classic.

afterwhich we went to eski bar and got high! hahaha met a few quite tipsy ang moh there.. sofyan at abt the end of our party and we all left. lots of pics with debbie =) was super fun party!!! =D farewell debbie! see u next year if God permits. =)

see you soon my friend.

TODAY
served choir in the morning. =) ALmost overslept. hahaha last night slept at 4am watching comedy. man. was a recharging night =)

tidied up my room, and set up my sound system! extra bass! extra sound! =) super cool! love playing stuff from this setup!!! =D just now i played "Am I Not Pretty Enough" By Kasey Chambers, and it sounds super nice over the system!! =) hahaha. yess!! here is a photo of the fruit of my labour. notice the minimal wires and things on my table. also notice the sub woofer under the table and the two speakers at the side. center is my laptop. =) all wires and accessories all hidden out of sight! =) btw, i used deodorant to clean my whiteboard that's why its so white lol

just talked to my dad about getting an air con for my room, and he's open to it, as long as i pay for it lol. we'll see abt that =D the room is only 10% done. lots more to do! can't wait to do a massive makeover for my room!! what potential this room has weeeeee...

OK! So now its time to blog about my mission trip!
****PART 1****
(*photos are from ronaldo and kenneth, from facebook)

I went for a mission trip with 12 other zone people including DT. =) We went from the 26th June to 30th June to an awesome church called GPdI Elohim. It is at Sidoarjo, Surabaya. Great place, great people.

Morning. yawns. wake up super early just to catch the first train down. waiting at the airport checking in our luggage. haha. super funny commotion, though i vaguely remember, because super early, and i was super sleepy.

On the way there, we wore masks. on the plane where no one else was wearing except us. it was the starting point of our journey, and we do not want anything to happen that will waste our trip over to Indonesia.

It was a 2 hour flight south to Indonesia, and the flight was super boring. No in-flight entertainment system. but it was a time when some of us prepared our sermons on the plane. Personally, for me, I was kind of fine-tuning the drama stuff as we were performing kind of a mime for the church there.

we did 2 mimes in total. one is on the prodigal son (or the way i pronounce it, portugal son. inside joke =D ), the other is on blind Bartimaeus (or the blind Barty). We did the first one once, and the second one twice. Gab, Issac, they are great actors man!! =) and Jamie!!! she can dance man! =D yep, her dance was part of the drama in the prodigal son, when the child goes galavanting.

anyway, we got down from the flight with superb hospitality! the church people immediately picked us up from the airport and offered to carry all our luggages up two cars. Its amazing how 14 people, luggages included, can squeeze into 2 SUV. =D It was an amazing journey to GPdI Elohim. We got to see the sights and sounds of Indonesia. =D

initial briefing by the local pastor, Pastor Raymond. He is a super cool pastor, and singer. he produces his own album! how amazing is that! =D he's the one on the left-most of the below picture. =D
The food at indonesia was superb. I had the chance to try out many different kinds of food. Panda special (which is cheese with fried rice), milo soyabean (soyabean milk mixed with milo) and happy soda (rose syrup, milk and soda). the food was super nice. just thinking about it wets my appetite. they make normal food taste good. even their MacDonald chicken is nice! =)

To Be Continued.... Stay Tuned! =D

2009-07-04T10:58:00.000+08:00

indeed how helpless man is.

no matter how far advance in technology, we still cannot contain the evolution of bacteria, viruses, sickness.

First is SARS,

Then is Avian Flu

Now Swine Flu. (swine flu has been around for quite a while already. check out wikipedia man..)

I'm down with a fever last night of temperature 38 degrees, and dry cough. today my temperature has gone down, but my cough is still there..

so i'm "grounded" at home.. i can take this chance to catch up with my reading, practise my violin and play my guitar =) and blog! =)

i dun noe why... i can't upload photos.. i tried to but couldn't.. nvm dun care.. for now.. going back to sleep..

2009-06-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

hi guys! sorry for the no-post. "hiatus"? i dunno the exact word. haha. why? i've been really busy with the SOT assignments, Zoe Conference, and prep for mission trip..

due to short-term memory of mine, i can only remember what happened recently.

tuesday was my first day of work! hahaha was super fun! i enjoyed myself, calling strangers and asking them to buy my product. during the briefing, they said that there will be a lot of rude rejection. but those i called, they were quite nice to me. they rejected me politely! haha. love my job! =) got to pray still.. for more favor and all. tmr is my 3rd day of work. lookin' fwd to it.

wednesday.. work! haha hands on demo of the stuff i sell + a bit more work. after that i went to riverwalk to teach a bit of sign language and also to get someone's present =)

thursday.. ZOE conference. awesome. a new freedom. from inferiority. from fears. from insecurities. freedom to develop my talents. going to do that. asked God to reveal to me what are my talents, and He did! =)) happy!

after that taught more sign language. Rina was found wanting. haha to learn sign language. so ok! =) hope to see her tmr so that i can teach her the basics. awesome man. =) after that chiong home and do assignments..

I was so distracted on this day. i'm not goign to allow that to happen to me no way. what is "that"? distractions of infatuation. i'm not going to allow this to take my eyes off from what really matters, at this point in my life. "don't let what matters most be at the mercy of what matters least, in the light of eternity."

friday, actually wanna stay in church.. but den forgot to bring present.. so went home first to get his present.. den after that SOS. no time to rest man.. but got time to read book =)

SOS was great man! talk about being a debtor to the world, laying my life, be broken with His love to serve him. these two points. got to see myself in that way.

saturday! morning continue reading bible. 22 chapters of revelation! whoa. mind blowing. haha awesome man. talking about the end days..

after that, went for cgc meeting.. whoa.. really reminds me of two things,
to seek after revelations all over again. and a burden in my heart is the start of breakthrough. =)

after that, service. good to see everyone again. drama i fell asleep, but vanessa cried. hahaha. shows how tired i am. the father's day message, i was expecting a more of a evangelistic message, but apparently it applies to me. love. i need it.

after that, someone said she wanted to treat me for dinner, but in the end, had dinner from another person. =) thanks janet! hate being broke. =(

today is an awesome day. morning reading book. i really wanted to wake up earlier. i found out why! my alarm ring tone too soft! i changed it today and it worked! but i put to snooze quite a lot of times. hahaha. i guess it all boils down to personal discipline.

went to serve in service. haha. den went for lunch. THANKS blythe for the 10 dollars blessing! =)) you dun know how long that will last man. it really means a lot to me =))

den went down to send my guitar for repairs. whoa happy! going to have a much better guitar by the time it gets back into my hands! =))

and found a fellow music fan!!! hahaha jazz band, ya? =)) good talking to him. we may be able to do a performance for christmas. =) the song has a lot of meaning to me.. haha don't think its strange if i cry during the performance. =D hahahaha looking forward. just wanna let you know.. to "him".. you dun know what you've done to this heart of mine, but it really spoke, raised my dreams from the dead, and let me believe in myself in that area. thanks a lot, and i believe you do not know it, but i guess God uses your passion and talent to revive the dreams of the people around u. though there are a lot of things i do not understand, but in God i trust, and that you are part of His answer to my prayers. =)

now chionging assignment. next entry. lots of photos. do be prepared =)

RESURRECTION to FREEDOM. what's next? every zoe conference is a life changing encounter for me. =) because of resurrection, i began to explore my dreams. because of freedom, i began to explore my talents. becuz of this encounter with God, i believe in myself once again. praise God, love.=)

Winter to Spring

2009-06-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

heys..

i'm back from my internet fast..

hahaha. was good. went out a lot though. but its about time to break the habit of switching on the com.

some of us are addicted to internet that we don't know it. but its only when we try to stay away from it and it becomes a struggle then we know how much grip it has on us..

been going out quite often these few days.. been starting the day right and all. i don't wish to elaborate here, cuz its really a lot of things that went on..

choir pract, NS briefing, out with vann and SOT friends, gosh i forgot what i did on friday! haha.. den ytd, went for service and late supper! hahaha. good talk with zoe. =D

today went church serve, went to eat with YK zone people for their YK zone outreach. haha. den finally came home. and here it is, the summary of what i've done..

i'm more interested to write what's really happening in my life den just the events. recently, i've been experiencing winter (for those who went for SOS, they know what i'm talking about). and i know its not the worst i'll will be experiencing, but its the worst i've experienced so far. everything around seems to be falling into pieces.

that's the case, i guess, that when you tell God you wanna be more like Him, He'll first break you up, den fix you back into His image.. seems like i was very wrong in my image of myself in walking with Him, that's why everything's all breaking up.

but it only means that, i'm becoming tender, and open to His presence.. and the only comfort i get is when i am at home, door shut, in my own secret place praying. i feel God's peace assuring me that everything's all right.

den the next day, it happens again. i will just keep running back to God and let Him deal with me. its tiring, to wake up with heavy feet and a loaded mind, but His presence is always there for me, whenever i run to Him.

and indeed, i believe now is the time for me to arise from my brokenness. my winter has ended. its time for me to step out again! =D i've got to focus on the calling that God has for my life =D focus on building myself up and building up my walk with God, above everything else! =) its going to be a new and interesting adventure from this day forth.

indeed, God is really my rod and staff when i walk through valleys. there is no other place for me to run to, He is my santuary, my hiding place. =)

Winter to Spring

2009-06-07T18:11:00.000+08:00

2009-06-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

i'm going on internet fast until sunday. i.e. til sunday 12mn. anything msg me.

went watch monster vs alien. FUNNY BOB! hahahaha. yupz, den went supper and now. nothing much happened... ... except met huishan at cathey. super funny! ahha. one day must take photo with her lol..

2009-06-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

i realise point form blogging is so much easier

yesterday
woke up 4:30
to do assignment

first thot =) lol.

blessed with presence

prayed for the day's event
"in everything i do, commit it unto the Lord"

9:30 finish assignment
went down jw to serve
blessed with friendships and fellowships

was a bit distracted
cuz only 3 hr sleep night before
took lots of photos

practise GDOP songs
at jw rooftop

GDOP was rush
but awesome!
revelations even while serving.

this prayer came true =)
led by the Spirit.
=D

GDOP was awesome!
photos taken with belle and ally
=)

today
morning prayer for
prayed for the day's event
"in everything i do, commit it unto the Lord"

prep for scholarship interview
chiong ar

head down to singtel comcentre
reach early
waited. read their articles
waited some more
observe the paintings in the waiting room
read caption on painting
finally,
my turn!

went in
nervous. haha. dun noe where my confidence all ran to.

half way
blessed with anointing haha
strange, but happy that its there
a comfort in the midst of the interview
prayers came true! =)

after interview. one of the interviewers came up to me, outside the room
ask me, are you from chc?
i said
yes
she said,
oh, me too!
whoa! happy. saint in amidst of them =)

came home
wanted to swim, but see so close to lunch time, took a nap.

ever since i started the morning prayer for the day
prayed for the day's event
"in everything i do, commit it unto the Lord"
My day has never been the same. it's became even more interesting
even more blessed. wanna encourage everyone to try, to start the day praying for the day's event. its gonna be great! =)

"in everything i do, commit it unto the Lord"

interesting things of yesterday and today

2009-05-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday
chao ta bread for breakfast and lunch,
therefore late in queuing up to go into the audi,
cuz have to clean the toaster from the chao ta bread.

after school
going from bl to pioneer just to have a seat so i can sleep on the train,
in the end being late to meet candice and blythe because of that.

coming back to first love again.
its all that matters,
when all been said and done.

late night supper at the malaysian train station at outram there.
until 2am plus. lots of photo
poor blythe
interesting conversation with vanessa before we slept.

today,
mop floor and scrubbed toilet floor before most people wake up

our debate team won. amazing.
i thought the opposing team was really good.
had a big hamper for the cg.
victory champagne tasted good

tried to read bible. realise 1 Kings 8 is a very long chapter.
chiong down in John's car. love his driving.
good that the attendance machine was set up late too,
so attendance didn't count as late PTL

before 2nd call time, met up with HI person to teach him a few words

chiong up stage after all the performances.
choir RUN! haha.

great word. time to bring the fire back.
in flow with bro Darren's message.
what will your life story be?

awesome fellowship
got to know some people more =)

tonight,
chionging 4th dimension. hopefully can get it done. =)
glad zhinian liked the present =)

IF your day isn't interesting, don't blame the day. its a choice, to make your everyday interesting.
IF your day isn't interesting, don't waste it. "make my day".
tmr's going to be another interesting day. hahaha. we'll see. JW, exodus to simei, round the Mount of Simei, den to Expo for GDOP. wanna take more photos tmr! =)

i need to start a diary soon. to record every single day of my interesting life. haha. =) stay tune for more! =) photos soon, once blythe uploads it onto facebook =)

2009-05-28T17:47:00.000+08:00

just wonder.

how many fulfilled goals will we have this year? =)

or how many are yet to fulfill as of now?

gonna make this year the best year yet! =D

2009-05-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

i wonder what if i pretend to be dumb or deaf for one day.

i just wanna know..

how will the people around me react to me?

2009-05-23T13:02:00.000+08:00

a quote from prayer changes nation.

"God becomes our real interest, and we become lost in Him, and we enjoy Him for all that He is, not for what He can do."

whoa this really changes my life. amazing. hope it'll change yours as well.

2009-05-16T08:40:00.000+08:00

haha. full of love. first time hearing that. i'm not in love, but i'm filled with love. LoL!

2009-05-10T01:15:00.000+08:00

its true what they say. one bad news spoils the whole mood, even if the entire day is good.

heart-broken. but its all in God's hands.

2009-05-03T18:15:00.000+08:00

love the quality time with my cg at botanic garden! was awesome man! more more in the future? =D

and ytd, more more quality time somemore, at the movies. haha! =D let's have more. go out, have fun. isn't that what cell group is about, building relationships and being a place for fellowship? =) and i believe that as we continue with building the relationships within the cg, people outside will see and want to join us, the cg with closely bonded members. its really fun to hang out with you guys E441! =) awesome.

love,
victor

2009-04-27T18:23:00.000+08:00

touch of heaven unplugged 2 was awesome man!

Drama was great! hahahaha. though its most of our first time, hahaha. it was entirely covered with grace. felt really, everyone did their best, and that we all had fun even during the rehearsals =D

JUSTIN, you were awesome. i always knew you could sing, but never really heard you sing before. hahaha besides the P&W sessions, of cuz! JACOB, amazing voice. wonderwall. wow. ZOE! because of you, I believe. =D finally, last but way definitely not the least, ANDREW!!! you are FANTASTIC!!!! =)) hahaha. yup, "here in DT zone, you'll always be our baby" LoL!! =)

photos are on facebook, and vanessa's blog. do take a look =D

2009-04-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

after all is said and done..

when the music fades
all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something that's of worth
that will bless your heart

i'll bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

chorus
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus

King of endless worth
no one could express
how much you deserve
though i'm weak and poor
all i have is yours
every single breath

chorus

2009-04-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

Dear Zoe,

You've really made a huge difference in my life. I really don't know where I'll be without you. Times when i feel like letting go, relax, be "stagnant", i remember your words spoken to me. Thanks a lot for making a HUGE difference in my life.

Love,
victor

p.s. photo is at JW B4, at 8:01 am. first row. after chionging for the front seats. LOL. memories of chionging for seats will forever be with me muahaha. =D

2009-04-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

photos on facebook. kindly view. hahaha. all my comments and what i want to blog are there. =)) pls visit.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=72512&id=830467229&l=a12777fbfa

2009-04-05T18:30:00.000+08:00

obviously i adjusted the timing of this post. hahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY vanessa!! =)

one year wiser, more mature ya? also prettier haha. glad to have known you. this year will be the best year yet for you, i believe. lots of things are going your way, and I'll be with you whenever you need me. =)

SOT is great so far. enjoying the presence of God and the flow and move of the Holy Spirit is incredible. =) Bible reading now taking over most of my time, but have great fellowship with my team members =D life transformation in progress =)

2009-03-31T18:46:00.000+08:00

haha. 2 days in SOT. a place where people gets SOT-ted out. lol. =) really great.. got to experience it for yourself.

2009-03-26T10:20:00.000+08:00

4 more days to SOT. i don't know what to expect. looking fwd to it though =))

2009-03-23T11:22:00.000+08:00

coming home. seeing the gates open gives a sense of hope that there is someone in the house. only to be let down by the reminder that i left the gates open when i left to buy lunch.

last night, had a pleasant dream, but i couldn't remember the lyrics. if i could, it'd have been beautiful. =)

nothing to do is killing me slowly. anyone got tuition assignment? i'm available on wed, thu, friday, mon and tue! give me something to do!

2009-03-21T08:20:00.000+08:00

24 hours a day. what do we do with it?

8 hours sleeping. "ideal". usually its less
2 hours eating.
2 hours travelling.
1-2 hrs on the internet.
1 hour to wash up/wash down.

we still have got 9 hours. what do we do with it? where did this missing time go to?

let's make our time more well spent with a good plan ya? =)

2009-03-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

life is about choice.

the right choices brings you far. the wrong ones destroys you. choose wisely =)

2009-03-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

__________
is this a line?

i guess i'm asking the obvious. but what if i say, this isn't a line?

_
| |
| |
| |
|_|

.

the "line" is a rectangle (pardon the drawing) from a 3D point of view. the "line" is actually a 2D point of view. now who is right? both. but who has the fuller picture? obviously the 3D point of view =)

you may say that i played a trick on you, but let me ask you this. how many of us are like the dot. we see so little. yet we're in the 3D world. so who can see the fuller picture?

God. He is the God of the 4D. cool huh. He is able to see things that we cannot see. our lives and intention, our heart and thoughts. all in a "glance". amazing, isn't it. this is something that i just realise, but i guess many would've already known this =) but its still amazing to me =D

2009-03-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

hi all! recently been working at the IT fair from thursday to sunday less saturday. been fun, quite an experience selling things and taking advantage of the selling points and things like that.. cool! i don't mind working for IT fair again.. only that its tiring..

today been quite fruitful. inspired. going to sign up for IDA scholarship.. =) haha. installing openoffice on my mum's mac now. =)

2009-03-11T11:24:00.000+08:00

DT's Zoe Conference is back yet again! :) i am really pumped up and excited for it!

Our theme for this year is Resurrection.

the event will start at 9am.

There will be powerful sessions and exciting workshops coming up.

The workshops available are:

1. Public Speaking.

2. Dance: Hip Hop and Popping.

3. Photography.

4. Fashion: Shoe Design.

5. Song Writing.

advertisement from vanessa's blog.

pls come. its going to be good =)

i think i'll copy my email i sent to yuling to here. haha. easier to blog. not wholesale copy obviously ;)

ytd i woke up at 6am in the morning for driving lesson eary in the morning.. yea. on my way for a license =) can't wait for the driving test.

last night slept at 12 mn. 6 hours of sleep. healthy. tmr morning.. hmm i shld go and exercise lol..
but in the end didn't go exercise cuz i woke up at 11 today. loll...

after driving, i went back to camp to pass terence the things.. hahaa. =) had fun back in camp. had breakfast with him, and talked about some stuff. =)) happy to see him again. =)

den after that i went back to driving centre to sleep cuz suppose to meet zhinian but she didn't answer my phone. haha. at about 12 o'clock, she sms me. i can't believe i fell asleep listening to a podcast! lol. went with her to have lunch. i didn't pay a cent for the meal =) den we talk and talk. =D i shared with her my past with charles and stuff. she was so amazed. cool. den we went arcade to play ddr. and the one that throw the ball on the screen. fun fun! =) haha.

after that, went down to jp to meet wendy. suppose to do manicure, but the manicure shop didn't have space for us, and we have got choir practise... so we went to eat at BK.haha. i only ate onion rings cuz i wasn't hungry.

after that choir practise =) was good!!!! i LOVE choir practise!! =) hahahhaa. =) we learnt the do re mi again. hahaha new song. =) a wonderful day. or something like that. plus, he didn't let us hear how the song sounds like, he just gave us the do re mi and ask us to sing it. was quite cool lol. now we have to gather in groups, next next week he'll ask one group and demostrate for us. lol..

i also sent this girl from choir home. she stays a few blocks away from me. haha. so can send home lol. don't anyhow think ar...

yep, that's what happened.

love,
victor

where will i be, without You? =)

2009-03-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

I just did a quiz that zhinian recommended. and its quite accurate ;)

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Disappointment
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Commitment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-03-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

going into SOT. i wonder what lies in store.

really nervous. i don't know why. but its an adventure i don't wanna waste.

driving test coming up on 11th April. hope i pass. then i can join the ranks of zoe and those who pass their driving =)exciting. =)

*i really wonder, can i really do it?*

(kop-ed from sharon's blog)

What if I give all

He heard the preacher say
"A single dime could feed
A hungry boy or girl with
Nothing to eat"

So he pulled a dollar
From the pocket of his jeans
He asked his Mama,
"How many will this feed?"

She just smiled
When she told him ten
He reached back in again

"What if I give all I have
What will that gift do?"
"My child a gift like that could change the world
It could feed a multitude!"

He didn't close his eyes or turn away
I can see him standing tall
He saw the need and I can hear him say
"What if I give all?"

Three birthday dollars
Could have bought a special toy
But he reminds me of
A another little boy

Who gave to Jesus
A gift of fish and bread
I wonder if he said,

"What if I give all I have
What will that gift do?"
"My child a gift like that could change the world
It could feed a multitude!"

He didn't close his eyes or turn away
I can see him standing tall
He saw the need and I can hear him say
"What if I give all?"

Long ago
A Father and His Son
Saw the children lost in sin

Can you see the tears in Father's eyes
As Jesus says to him

"What if I give all I have
What will that gift do?"
"My son that gift will change the world
It will feed the multitude"

"So what if I give all I have
What will that gift do?
My child a gift like that could change the world
It could feed a multitude

We cannot close our eyes and turn away
When we hear His Spirit call
We see the need, now let Him hear us say,

"What if I give all?
What if I give all?"

2009-03-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

no pain,
no gain.

2009-03-06T14:45:00.000+08:00

argh! LUP in progress. (LUP - lift upgrading programme)

super noisy. zZz can't even take my afternoon nap in peace. now i really wish i lived in a semi-d or private apartment. more peaceful + once get driving license, more convenient too. now its super noisy..

today just went back to good ole to get a form. lol. just to get a form. and of cuz, catch up with terence and the rest of them =) super good time of catching up. been a long time, miss them =D

can't stand it. the drilling. argh!

2009-03-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

post 101.

to you.

(Miriam) Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

(Tzipporah) In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
(Miriam) now I'm standing here
(Tzipporah) My heart's so full I can't explain
(Both) Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill (It's hard to kill)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

(Child) Ashira l'adonai ki gaoh ga-ah
Ashira l'adonai ki gaoh ga-ah
Mi chamocha baelim adonai
Mi kamocha nedar bakodesh

(Children) Nachita v'chas-d'cha am zu ga-alta
Nachita v'chas-d'cha am zu ga-alta
Ashira ashira ashira

(People) Ashira l'adonai ki gaoh ga-ah
Ashira l'adonai ki gaoh ga-ah
Mi chamocha baelim adonai
Mi kamocha nedar bakodesh

Nachita v'chas-d'cha am zu ga-alta
Nachita v'chas-d'cha am zu ga-alta
Ashira ashira ashira

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill

(Miriam) It's hard to kill

(People) Who knows what miracles
You can achieve

(Tzipporah) You can achieve

(People) When you believe
Somehow you will
See you will

(Miriam & Tzipporah) You will when you believe

2009-03-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

hi all. this is my 100th post.

two things i wanna remind myself.

1. with man it is impossible. but with God nothing is impossible. God i pray, set me free, and keep me free.

2. the truth will set you free. live in truth. stop deceiving yourself.

2009-03-01T01:43:00.000+08:00

stupid me.

taking a photo of this vintage Volkswagen Golf Convertible when i step into a puddle of wet CEMENT! oh my gosh! hahaha, and funny thing, is that in the photo, you can see the cone marking the boundaries of the wet cement. and i just walked right pass it. now it has my footprint in it.

My dream car

2009-02-28T10:11:00.000+08:00

presenting... my dream car!

New Beetle Convertible

super cool, in this colour =) bright and happy and cheerful. haha wanna drive one of this..

thursday went for adult meeting. was great! a lot of practical questions about the supernatural was raised. i am sure glad that i went.. =)

haha. i like leo's question about how Jesus fasted for 40 days.. =) was a good question.. and good answer by bro darren too. that cuz He had a supernatural call from God to do that, that's why when He decided to do it, God gave Him supernatural endurance..

one thing that impacted me most. power of God, is it real in your life? =) i wanna be a true witness for God. let His power come and change my life 180 degrees.

2009-02-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

i finally understand what justin meant when he said.

there are 3 type of people in this world.

some people are willing to die for something.

some people are looking for something to die for.

and some just don't care, just drifting emotionlessly (apathetic).

which do you fall under?

2009-02-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

whoa i really learnt a lot from the single plus course.

the first lesson. its not about relationship, but about self awareness.. super cool =)

talked about renewal of the mind. Jeremy, a ZS, emphasizes on this. after all, its the inside that has to be changed first, rather than the outside. =)

one thing that impacted me the most is this:
"Part of renewing of the mind has to do with visualization!
without a vision, the people perish!"

wow. isn't it amazing. you know, as a Christian, i always thought renewing of the mind is setting my mindset in accordance to the word of God.. i didn't see it this way. wow.. ok! i got to set my vision right!

if i can see it, i can have it.
if i can say it, i can have it.

another thing that impacted me was,

Wrong beliefs cannot be removed. they can only be replaced. so amazing! i knew this, but didn't really see it this way, as in, didn't really proactively go and replace those wrong beliefs! i'm so gonna fish out all the wrong beliefs in me and replace them with good beliefs. and the new beliefs, must come with an image, its not just words.

how do you think?

ans: by talking to yourself. now you're probably asking yourself "ya, how do i think?"

see. you think by talking, asking questions to yourself. got to watch what i say to myself, ya? =) a reflection of the wrong beliefs to be replaced. whoa really learnt a lot. tmr morning I'm going to wake up early to revise what i learnt today! =)) so glad i signed up for it.

2009-02-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

http://www.chc.org.sg/citynews/?p=9777

our very own hand-written bible by chc! cool. always wanted to do that for myself. loll..

2009-02-24T01:23:00.000+08:00

i'm learning how to let go..

i'm also learning how to hold on..

ironic? no. its the focus in my life.

so much things happened. i'm learning to let go of my bonnie, learning to hold on to what is really important to me right now. ;) hope you get what i mean.

insecurity will naturally come with separation. we should not fear insecurities. but to overcome them. we are not called to live by fear, but by faith. i believe. let's do this right.

2009-02-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons

http://www.chc.org.sg/citynews/?p=9577

the best show i've watched so far. its really good. not for those action lovers, but more for the story line, the drama, the meaning and most of all, the enjoyment factor. every movie is like that, its either you have it or you don't. this one certainly has what it takes to capture my heart! love it, though not recommended for those who fall asleep while watching A Beautiful Mind, or the Pianist. =)

watched it on V day eve. and tmr probably going to watch again. haiz. my station there the problem is not fixed yet. still doing the same thing again. but really thank God for the job. love it a lot. =) i learnt how to fold paper swan today!!! hahahha. ask me, i'll teach! =)

something big is coming my way. i can feel it, and he doesn't like it. =)) and he can't do anything against it! =)

2009-02-22T00:40:00.000+08:00

the teacher becomes the student of his own lesson. =)

amazing.

2009-02-21T10:39:00.000+08:00

my to-do list.

haha totally ruin.

wendy's in JB,
ZN wanna read the book, so ok,
timesheet is like, i don't know how to fill it up, so i'll be meeting her(recruit agency) to ask her to give me advice on filling up.
NUS the health website http://www.nus.edu.sg/uhwc/clinic/UGPreME.html is down, so can't book a slot for the NUS health check..
out of the seven items, only 2 things i can do. oh well.. =(

2009-02-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

yozz..

really don't know what to post. hahaha.

let's get some inspiration..

vanessa blogged about her talent inc. thing..
oh singles plus is starting this wednesday, and its like omgosh so soon! =D can't wait to see what's installed.. haha bringing out the "'X' factor" in me ;) as advertised. =)) and grooming, and basically how to be a gentleman/lady ;) can't wait lalala. just in time for me to go uni lol..

yuling blogged about flying to australia..
yes, i'll miss you! dark ok what. i think you are ok with dark skin. look at wendy! =)

zoe about official..
hmm, i wonder if there's a double meaning to it hmm..

valerie about yuling flying off and birthday..
haha blogged about that just now..

zhinian blogged about her shoes and skype and a book and ....
haha. i'm also reading a book. its called battlefield of the mind. from charles, wenloong, royston. when i first entered ns they gave me the book, i didn't touch it until now lol. so sorry guys ;)
skype is like that de, have got to get used to it. heehee.
my shoes is peien bought from taiwan and gave it to me, and i stil love it to bits! =)

junius blogged about reality=sum of your experience
haha. one equation i learnt from adam khoo.. that is
E+R=O
Event + Respond = Outcome.
=)

ok for the rest of the blog like maria and marilyn, i won't go so much into cuz i've to stop somewhere =) love love, byebye.

my bonnie lies over the ocean,
my bonnie lies over the sea,
my bonnie lies over the ocean,
so bring back my bonnie to me.

bring back, o bring back,
o bring back my bonnie to me, to me.
bring back, o bring back,
o bring back my bonnie to me.

2009-02-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

thanks yuling for your v day gift. i love it lots! =)) esp the message.

this is something that i did last year. good to share with all =D a reminder.

~BUILT TO LAST~

10 CORE VALUES^*

Value of Loyalty : “You shall have no other gods before Me.”

Value of Commitment : “You shall not make for yourself a carved image...”

Value of Respect : “You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain..”

Value of Accountability : “Remember the Sabbath” - connectedness

Value of Family : “Honor your father and your mother..”

Value of Love : “You shall not murder.”

Value of Faithfulness : “You shall not commit adultery.”

Value of Hard work : “You shall not steal.”

Value of Integrity : “You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.”

Value of Generiosity : “You shall not covet...”

Value of having V.A.L.U.E.S:

Visible

Attracts

Lead -> my compass

Unites

Establish -> my foundation

Standard -> my ruler

*Necessary for long term growth

**Matt 6:33 “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”

2009-02-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

had a long long talk with leo just now at ya kun.

seems we can talk til the cow come home..

things are going to happen man. hahahaha. MAN! =)

oh oh, their kaya toast simply rocks! =)

TMR is choir practise!! can't wait!! my dream come true. you won't believe how long i've been dreaming for a day like this =D

and this is how a fret on the guitar looks like =D today is a very random blogpost..

http://guitar.about.com/gi/dynamic/offsite.htm?site=http://www.frets.com/FRETSPages/Musician/GenSetup/Frets/frets01.html

2009-02-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

haha.. thanks to vanessa for something to blog.. else i won't know what to blog hahaha.

happy v day everybody. as you know, this day is a day of giving and receiving. and i realise something. that sometimes the best gift you can give someone is usually the one you can't buy with money, or is usually very cheap. why? cuz its precious. and money can't buy you love. here are some of the things that i received, though they may be cheap, but i love them to bits cuz its the person who gave it. and that they thought of me even during this season =)

from mum. my number one supporter =) so sweet right. i know.

from wendy! BUDDY! haha. ok, but apart from that, she always somehow is able to inspire me. about certain things. she speaks with clarity and truth, and i like that =) u go girl.

yes, iServed in AC 2008. just for the records. hahaha..

and a brownie from valerie chan. sorry i ate it so no photos.. but she's the sweetest girl i've ever met.

hahaha =) to all, all attached le. somehow only attached people gave me presents this v day.. i wonder why...

oh ya, still got vanessa and pei en with their sweets. thanks sweeties.. hahaha. ok apart from the pun, thanks for being there for me throughout all the time. =)

love is in the air.

happy v day!!

To all who are facing oppression, who are facing trials and difficulties, who do not know where to turn to, who feels emo, who are lonely, who wants to scream and shout, who is tired of living up to people's expectation, this song is for you.

its not easy being you, definitely. but you know what? we stand strong together. we identify, we commune together, we stick together yo. and nothing's gonna bring us down. i love all my super friends. its not easy being me as well. but i'm glad you were always there with me. you're all superheros in my eyes. =) and i love you guys lots!!

Five for Fighting - Superman

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me.

I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it’s not easy to be me.

Up, up and away…away from me
Well it’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
inside of me

I’m only a man in a funny red sheet
I’m only a man looking for a dream

I’m only a man in a funny red sheet

It’s not easy ...
It’s not easy to be.. me...

2009-02-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

ok i just did something crazy and new just only. a crazy confession to myself. and justin. and zoe. but its the truth, and really personal. and it feels good. i feel more freed up. more able to move in the Spirit. haha. whoa somehow really in the flow..

i'm glad that i'm in the flow of God in the zone. i rmbr last year we were sharing our new year resolutions in december, i shared that this year i want to move in the Spirit even more. that it'll be the year of the Spirit. and den justin and bro darren this month recently shared that this year will be the year of the Spirit. really really very affirming =)

2009-02-14T02:00:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's day!!

the romans used to have a celibration on 15th feb where as the roman soldiers got to choose a woman then they would spend the next twelve months with them and then go to the celibration again. but a lot of the soldiers fell in love and got married and did not want to go to battle. so the emperor said no soldiers could get married but the church dissagreed with this and said they would marry them if they wanted. so the emperor had the preists arrested. one of the preists was called valentine, and he was in love with the jailers daughter and he wrote her a letter and the jailer found out about this and had him clubbed to death. and at the end of his letter he wrote, from your valentine. he died on 14th feb and that is why we have valentines day.

http://wiki.answers.com/Q/The_reason_of_Valentine%27s_Day

yes still single and waiting..

2009-02-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

haha.. a bit more spiritual post. sorry forgot the source..

Aim to be real, not nice.

Jesus didn't fit the mold of stereotypical spirituality that prizes a nice, calm, and sweet demeanor over everything else. Instead of glossing over life, He connected at a deep level with other people's triumphs and tragedies, rejoicing with them during good times and grieving with them during bad times. Jesus could be nice, but He could also be outspoken, edgy, melancholy, and fervent. He was passionately emotional, and He calls you to fully and deeply express your emotions as well -- both in joy and in pain. Experience God's passion for you and embody His passion for the world.

communication is key to life. i guess i've been oppressing this for quite some time, fearing that communicating it may lead to other things. but it didn't end up so bad. haha. was a great day man.. =)

2009-02-11T23:46:00.000+08:00

hihi! haha.. physics freak.. if flawed pls don't correct me, i'm not really a professor in physics..

but this is just something i thought about.. just for fun.. also to give it to my friend to consider it..

Derivation of conservation of momentum..

Newton's third law states:

every force has an equal and opposite reacting force

consider two balls colliding..

B1 -------><-----------B2 +ve ----->

B1 and B2

B1 initial velocity u1
mass m1

B2 initial velocity -u2
mass m2

by Newton's second law,

force by B1 onto B2 = m1 * a1
= m1 * (-v1-u1)/t, t being the time of impact

force by B2 onto B1 = m2 * a2
= m2 * (v2-(-u2))/t
= m2 * (v2 + u2)/t

by Newton's third law,

force by B1 onto B2 = force by B2 onto B1

m1 * (-v1-u1)/t = m2 * (v2+u2)/t

-m1v1 - m1u1 = m2v2 + m2u2

-m1v1 - m2v2 = -m1u1 - m2u2
m1v1 + m2v2 = m1u1 + m2u2

(note: since momentum is a non-directional, therefore we have to use -u2 and -v1 instead of u2 and v1.)

charles farewell was good, yet tired from work. spirit willing but flesh weak.. will miss him for about 2 years.. knew him for 4 years..

to charles.

hi bro. we've known each other for 4 years, and i can safely say, you're the closest friend who knows me the best, my habits and my style, the principles and attitudes i stand on. and i believe that you've really grown a lot and changed over the years.. and its amazing what God has been doing in your life. stay strong and close to God during your trip in Australia. though i may not be physically there, i'm still there relationally for you.

yours truly,
victor

2009-02-09T08:46:00.000+08:00

hihi!

this article is about facebook..

http://www.time.com/time/arts/article/0,8599,1877187,00.html

For anyone who wants to trim fats from their tummy =D as requested by a few people..

http://www.articlesbase.com/weight-loss-articles/the-truth-about-how-to-trim-belly-fat-529224.html

A few websites about eyebags..

their causes: http://www.simply-aesthetic.com/causes-eyebags.htm

and their treatment (non-medical): http://www.chinadaily.com.cn/citylife/2008-01/08/content_6377804.htm

and this is about sleep..

http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1812420,00.html

"Studies show that people who sleep between 6.5 hr. and 7.5 hr. a night, as they report, live the longest. And people who sleep 8 hr. or more, or less than 6.5 hr., they don't live quite as long. There is just as much risk associated with sleeping too long as with sleeping too short. The big surprise is that long sleep seems to start at 8 hr. Sleeping 8.5 hr. might really be a little worse than sleeping 5 hr." (extract from http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1812420,00.html)

well, reason why i posted this up because last night, i slept for 14 hours, with a dinner break, supper break and a brush-teeth break in between. i can't believe myself man.. too much sleep ain't good.. tonight, i'm going to try for 7 hours of sleep =) no more, no less. healthier..

reason for sleeping so much? the night before, i came home at 2 am.. slept at 3am and woke up at 8.. 5 hours sleep. not too bad, but felt not used to it, cuz i'm used to 8 hours of sleep haha.. so i thought i better make up for it and sleep more last night. but i didn't expect so much! hahaha.

2 groups of people i want to specially raise up today here on my blog..

1. Birthdays!!

Happy birthday to Janet, Jamie and Lisa! =D

Janet - 4th Feb (but celebrated on 30th Jan)
Jamie - 10th Feb (but celebrated on 6th Feb)
Lisa - 7th Feb =)

Janet - I knew her 6 months into JC. but its not in JC where i met her. its surprising how i met her. our fathers were colleagues, and we had to attend this prize presentation ceremony, and that's where. i think its beside the SAF Yacht Club wor. i'm really glad i met her though. haha. the first thing about her that caught my eye was her pink ankle socks.. wore together with her SAJC school uniform. haha and we talked from then.. den she invited me to come to church and that's how it all started =)

Jamie - Pretty and miss glamourous. haha. dancer too, and really good one. my ex-cellgroup member, E348, always had cell group in her house wor.. and always willing to help =)

Lisa - Outgoing and sensitive. also very interesting. i first met her in start of 2007, when i first enlisted into army. she is someone who is very direct, straight to the point de. and yet, she is also sensitive to others. good combo. also pretty and cute. =) good at latin dance, and very good with make-ups, i'm really glad to meet her. though we had our ups and downs, i'm glad we're still friends. =)

second group of people is...

Choir Auditions!

Congrats to all who got through the choir auditions =)) happy for you guys =D

Congrats to Maria and Lisa getting into alto =DD

Congrats Benedict, Kelvin and Jingwei too! =)

Can't wait to attend my first choir practise.. its suppose to be tmr but tmr i got cgc training.. so have to go for the next one.. its a tradeoff, and i hope it'll be good =) anyway, vanessa, francis, gab, wendy and maria also skipping the former for the later... so i'm not alone. but i believe its gonna be fun! =) tmr dinner with vanessa and wendy before the training can chit chat somemore.. today after pm talked quite a bit and chit chat. tmr somemore ya? =)

2009-02-06T21:34:00.000+08:00

hi all! like my new blogskin? i'm lovin' it, yea! many thanks goes to enex from blogskin who contributed this skin =)

let's see.. what to blog on my first post on this new blogskin? =D

how about interesting things i found online? =)

Light, Heat and God

Darkness is nothing but a absence of light. You can measure intensity of the light to infinity but can you do the same for darkness? Cold is nothing but absence of heat. Heat can be measured to infinity but cold maintains a steady value at a certain degree. Absolute zero (-460 F) is the total absence of heat; and all matter becomes inert and incapable of reaction at that temperature. It was proclaimed that Albert Einstein said: "Evil does not exist, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

( Interesting Facts | Science Facts )

i don't know which is which, but apparently, in one of the science/religion tales, this is actually a rebuttal by a student to a atheist professor regarding, if God is good, why is there evil in this world? way cool...

hmmm i'm considering changing my laptop ram from a 512mB to a 1GB ram.. for 99 dollars.. and getting a 12-cell battery for my laptop.. my laptop ain't so bad after all..

actually i wanted to change my laptop at the upcoming IT fair.. 12-15 March. geek-ville. =) cuz my laptop is 3 years old already and it gives me problem with the internet. but after my dad helped me troubleshoot, i found out that the problem was with my Norton Internet Security. So we solved the problem, and now, all i have to do is to make my com faster, and its as good as new =)

Been working as "Customer Service Officer" aka LTA ambassador for 1 week plus already. quite fun. i learnt patience. heehee. and dealing with different kinds of people taught me a lot. i'm glad i've got the job. =) thanks to my old sec sch friend, whom i doubt will read this. but anyway, thanks prash! =D

my colleagues are the funnest bunch of people!! love them to bits! i won't trade them for the world man. they cool. =D gives some life to my otherwise boring job. =))

*of my lifetime of rejects, i finally made it through an audition. my first audition that i wasn't sure that i was going to make it, and i did! =) i haven't feel its impact, but its really significant to me. amazing... my first breakthrough of 2009 =D

CNY in Malaysia! =)

2009-01-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

hello from Malaysia!

its been a great 3 days here in Setia Alam, Selangor, Malaysia =)

from serving over 30 people for reunion dinner, to sitting in the car not knowing where we are going seeing all the restaurants are closed and finally going to "seafood king" restaurant. =) haha. been great man.. had so much fun with my cousins and nieces..

=D my first time carrying and holding a baby, my niece, and playing around with my 6 year old cousin. cool man. i never thought that one day i'll actually be playing with them =D

this is what happened for the past few days..

Saturday - left house at 8:40 am and reached here at 5:30pm. 9 hours journey. crazy jam at the courseway. slept, woke up, went out for dinner at this Chinese restaurant "nearby".. their restaurant is like so far la, half an hour car ride. =D

Sunday - morning went to eat bak ku teh for lunch, dinner had reunion dinner at home. ok la, the 30 people was a bit exaggerated.. it was more like, exactly 30 people hahah. don't believe go count. =D very very fun! and chaotic.. haha. we caught up with each other's life, and sang karoke all night, until 2 in the morning man. haha was super fun. yes i sang. though i don't think i sang well, i apologise for those having to hear me sing. hahaha. but the rest, they sang great man! whoa super powerful. =D *you're so vain =P also my first time hearing my brother sing.. haha. =D he's good too. =)

Today - slept til 11, because last night slept so late. haha. den lai zhuang for a while, had runion dinner. again with 30 people. and also karoke! =) haha. =D i love my cousins! =)

after that went to visit my grandma's sister.. and went to eat at this Seafood King Restaurant. ok la, but the portions was big, but den had to feed 13 people, so was quite reasonable =) hmm, den its goodbye to all, and tmr i'm coming back, leaving here at 8am in the morning. coming back to Singapore! mixed emotions. haha. see yer soon! =) miss you all, and missing Singapore. =)

2009-01-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

~for what i lack in TALENT, i make up for it with PASSION~

this goes out to everyone. go for your dreams. don't ever, for one second, think that you're not talented enough, or your circumstances doesn't allow you or your upbringing is not good. go for your dream. lacking in talent? make up for it with passion!

2009-01-13T12:05:00.000+08:00

photoscaping.

www.photoscape.org

great website to go to. haha. download the photo editing software. its cool.

here is something i did with the photos taken on sunday..

yesterday. met kenneth (army friend) for lunch. chit chat. met lek guan too! haha. very fun.. at least better than staying at home. den met yuling for dinner. talked about stuff. den went home. by time reach home also quite late. haiz should start going home early, den can save money.. haha. should stay at home more often then.

2009-01-11T19:05:00.000+08:00

hey guys! been such a long time since i last blog. really sorry. haha. but well, here i am =D

anyway, photos are up on facebook. still left wendy to send me hers den i can have the complete collection for the bro darren birthday celebration album =D

2-5jan went to kl. was fun to catch up and stuff.. but good thing we didn't stay too long because on cny we'll be going KL again.. =D need anything? ask me and give me the money.

6 Jan was spent with janet =D was fun, got to talk and spend time with her. she gave me this very cute violin handphone accessory. but the part connecting it to the handphone broke. so here it is, and i dun noe what to do. maybe wil put it together with my bintan seashells =)

at nite went out with vanessa and yuling =D went to vanessa house and eat the spagetti. and also watched frequency on HBO on demand. and while they watching hairspray after that, i fixed up the shoe rack. fixed up until the shoe rack can be slanted. "artistic". oops. sorry. after that spend some time with yuling and took a super long bus ride from tampines interchange to home. was a great time spent with her..

7th Jan. met vanessa for dinner at zhinian restaurant. was another great time. haha. really a lot with her, in her word, "from A-Z". lol. buddyy!! =) can't wait for the next time, next month, Ernie, ya? =D again took the same super long bus from tampines to home. i'm never going to take that journey again.

8th Jan. Dinner and stuff with peien. was hmmm.. fun? but definitely relaxing. just played and chill out lo.

9th Jan, actually suppose to meet yuling but some things happened. anyway, met with vanessa, peien and wendy to go hang out. haha. in a way la.. was really a chill out time for us, to really catch up as a group. some secrets has been revealed ;) muahahaha.. mostly mine la. aiyo..

10th jan. suppose to meet Jon for lunch but some things happened, so met zhinian for lunch at bugis. haha our dressing arr.. about the same. hahaha. same theme la, i would say. all blacks, with tie. haha. anyway, met up with Jon at expo in the end. queue, chiongg for seats together, =D and just after prayer meeting, i went to celebrate bro darren's birthday together with the discipleship group. nope, i'm not in the group, just that quite a few of my friends are in there, and bro darren also mean quite a lot to me, so my as well join them. heehee. after service went to boon tong kee to eat chicken rice. haha Ezekiel request for chicken rice, so all right man. haha. he just came back from Poland. =D haha had lots of stories to share and stuff.. =D pictures on facebook! =D

and there was today. meet up with my secondary school guys! yea. been quite a while. =D did a bit of catching up.. =D was great man.. been such a long time. came home and sleepp..

haha. recently my bro sold me his ipod for 70 dollars! was a great buy man.. i very happy =D even though its a 2G 20Gb ipod classic, its still an ipod nonetheless. and i'm happy!! =D

ytd went to service. john bevere came! whoa he really very suai. and his dressing v cool! simple yet nice. =D and the things he said. mindblowing. and yes, he stick to the word. that's why it brought faith to the people who heard it. about the eternity mindset. about working now sowing into the eternity life. was quite scary at the same time was quite motivating. =) got to live for eternity ya? =D i got the book and cd. sharing with wendy. haha. got so many books to read yay! =)

2009-01-02T16:33:00.000+08:00

hey guys. happy new year! 2009 be the best year yet, ya?

ytd. stayed over at vanessa house for countdown. haha was superfun. at 10 o'clock, only me and peien arrived.. den slowly, 11 o'clock alvin and jon teo and bryan and albert came. den past 12 mn, wendy and aaron. hahaa. was super fun.

we started the night with peien and me playing 7 hand poker, then 2 person taidi. den we play uno. haha. long time didn't play those games. was fun! =)

when the rest come, we watched tvee.. mr bean on holiday. super funny man. we all had a good laugh. =)

after that, we watched harry potter while playing monopoly. hahaha. slowly, one by one, people got eliminated. it came down to me and alvin, and i won!!! first time in my entire life i won monopoly. usually i'll be the first to lose. haha. this time we played different. we gave generously, and guess who were the biggest givers? yeap, me and alvin =D shows that giving

vanessa, aaron and wendy did't play monopoly cuz the seats were filled le. so they played uno instead. was fun. vanessa and peien went to sleep while the rest of us continued uno. alvin went to sleep after the monopoly game. must be really tired. we played for 4.5 hours. and by the time i slept it was 6am le. whoa. alvin jon bryan and albert left at 6am. while we continued to sleep. haha next morning woke up, wendy and aaron wanted to buy big breakfast, so me wendy aaron ordered big breakfast while watching shrek, while peien and vanessa continued sleeping. after that, aaron got to go le, so wendy sent him off. at that time, vanessa and peien just woke up. haha.

wendy came back and slept while peien myself vanessa and her mum went to grab lunch. vanessa and myself den sent peien to the bus stop. after that we had lunch, vanessa had to go off first, and i had to help her mum do some IT stuff. after we settled the IT stuff, wendy and myself went down to the bus stop to meet aaron. we had a good talk. then, wendy went off with aaron while i went home on a superlong bus ride. hahaha. was crazy.

reached home. had dinner while using com. den packed my bag to go to KL. haha. i'm the navigator. had to prepare the route and all. =) den also helpped my mum upload songs into my mp3 for her to listen. whoa so used to packing le. just took half an hour to pack. also did the ns overseas notification online. yeap now in malaysia le. can't wait for the wedding tea reception heehee..

haha can't wait to see my cousins...

2009-01-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

tmr going down to KL. 7 30 am. be back at about 6pm on 5 jan. don't try to contact me during the between period. i don't have auto roam.

will blog about ytd countdown tmr. tmr must wake up early. in the meantime,

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!
the BEST year yet! =D if the circumstances don't allow i'm still going to make it the best year yet! i am not bounded by circumstances, but by myself. i'm free! hahaha.. and so are you!

2008-12-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

yoooo!

hahaha..

been a hectic week. summary. here goes.

23rd. work. vanessa's christmas party at her house. lots of fun! =)) quality time spent with them, playing games and eating potluck food. hmm. 1000 island on choc chicken? bleah! xP

24th. christmas eve. snow city. candlelight service. loves one particular photo that was taken. =)

25th. christmas! what's more appropriate than to go to church? brought mum to church. she responded PTL! =)) happy. went fellowship with francis vanessa liujing yuling. loves. enjoyed the fellowship. went home for dinner. =)

26th boo! spent whole day planning + preparing for buddy peien's birthday. haha. shopping! reached novena super early. waited for yuling and vanessa. searched and reserved the cake. 2230 took cake out of fridge. decorate the cake. look at facebook for photo. met up with her cg people, weizhe, samuel, val, huihui, charles, leo. thanks for coming! appreciate it lots!! =)) love peien @ 0005. 5 minutes late. hmmm vanessa our plan didn't go out as well, did it? had to drag her down hahaha and that constitutes the 5 minutes. k fine, not drag, but persuade. was fun! =) celebrated. wasted half of the cake with foodfight. was fun though, and worth it. next time i learn, i'll get a cake twice the size, so that half can be used for foodfight. after that, stayed over at vanessa's house. kinda late. next day, went home. sleeepp.

27th. suppose to meet lewis for lunch, overslept. suppose to meet cg @ 3. overslept. in the end woke up at 4 30 rush down. Dr kong interview with Sun. loves. went out steamboat with buddies vanessa and peien. loves! ate. surprised peien with cg celebration. didn't see that coming, did you? hahaha. bought yogurt. 3 shared. went home. FUN! loves.

28th. service in morning. almost couldn't wake up. nearly overslept. left bike in expo. after service. went down to visit vanessa. went home after that. had afternoon nap, had time to myself. rest recooperate. dinner@home.

29th. work. usher outing. was fun, but rush. wish could spend the night there, but next day got work. loves. reached home 2330. slept.

today. work. went recruit express with yuling. read about love language, and discuss with her about love language. glad she wants to read the book too. its not just 5 love language by gary chapman. its 5 love language FOR SINGLES! yay! nice to read. stuck to it after reading the first few pages. nice book. really determined to do a few things. express love in other ways other than words. =)) and also, find out about other people's love language and express it in a way that they will feel most loved =)

tmr. half day. last day of work. zZz. meeting kenneth (Army) to set Goals. den going home to pick stuff up, den going to meet peien, den buddy vanessa's house for stayover! =D HAPPY NEW YEAR. loves. can't wait for 2009. greater things ya? =)

2008-12-22T20:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the Christmas party for cg.. woke up at 8am. finally being able to wake up late after one entire week of early wake-ups is just awesome. but i fell sick. down with a flu. and it got worse through the day..

i went Vivocity to meet up with Vanessa, pei en and liujing. sorry liujing for hitting you with my bag. i really didn't mean it. anyway, didn't see much of you on that day cuz you were also rushing here and there for your Christmas drama =)) gonna be awsome!

together with vanessa and pei en, we went to buy some gifts and utensils for the party itself. haiz those two ar.. lovey dovey.. haha. no, they're straight. and single. loll.. my nose got worse. dripping uncontrollably.

pei en went home while vanessa and me went down to her place to prepare for the Christmas party. or rather we went down to her place and she prepared for the Christmas party. haha, i was so sick i just slept on her couch like Garfield and woke up at 6:30pm was like omgosh. haha. and after waking up, i still felt very sick, did what i could. her mum gave me medicine, which was awesome. it didn't work for the first few hours.. and after it worked, i got drowsy. hahaha. didn't help much in the running of the event, but it definitely made me feel better..

anyway, nice curry chicken jon, and thanks vanessa for the log cake.. =) fried rice by lisa was awesome, and the beef dish by kenneth was great! not forgetting, of course, our dear yong cheun, who cooked 9 dishes for us (i think it was less, but it felt like 9).. =)) was great man! overall, the food part, i think we did a good job, besides the timing part. people really enjoyed the food (except the soup. which required an acquired taste a.k.a not suitable for us).. =))

and one purpose of this event was met! we really got to know more people and really socialize and network among our lovely guests =) i think that really went well! good job guys! indeed at the end of the day, its the relationship that counts. events come and go but relationships lasts! =) really enjoyed myself. especially the last part, photo taking =)) all photos are with gab so must wait for him to send den can upload =)

today after work went down to ntuc. which fruit cocktail to choose? in the end got the middle range one. wanted to buy the 3 dollar per can one but too ex le! hahaha. ended up buying sparkling grape juice too! hahaha.. but all within budget so its all right. at the end of the day, its more worth it this way. haha.

when i was on my way to ntuc yuling asked me what i want! hahaha. =)) yayyss!! christmas presents! ain't expecting any this year cuz i'm not getting any... got no budget for it.. somemore getting retrench. anyway, thanks! confirm i'll bless you guys in some other ways some other time =DD confirm! and vanessa also said she got present for me!!! happpy!! =)))) hahaha.. feel so blessed to have friends, close ones =)) loves! sorry for not being able to get presents for you guys this year.. however, to me the season of giving is not in a month or a day, but its throughout the year!! =)) gifts are good, but surprise gifts are great! =))

can't wait for tmr to end. looong break finally! =)) MERRY CHRISTMAS!

New Blogskin! =)

2008-12-21T09:32:00.000+08:00

haha. don't you just love my new blogskin? =) tag on my tagboard and comment about it ya? i love it to bits!

=D

anyways, time to blog =D

so sorry for not blogging for the past week. was really busy with stuff and slept really late. last nite i was even dozing off in front of my com!

let's see what happened during the week:

Sunday.

Went for service to serve in usher. was a breakthrough day for me. i was given a role to be overall in charge of the ushers in the zone, of cuz not with the comset, but by my usher leader. its an unofficial appointment =D yea, so though its only 3 zones, it was a breakthrough cuz i've never done such a thing before. haha was fun! =) anyway, all the zone ushers were in my team/my friends =D very fun to work with de. especially kenneth. he really brings energy into my sunday mornings.

went to meet zhinian after that for a deep talk. she really share from deep inside her and i could feel for her. =) zhinian i understand how you felt about certain things and i'm glad that its over and you've made a decision. decision->discipline->determination. its a start to a great destiny ahead. ended up reaching home at 10 pm with my dinner cold on the table. haha and the next day i still have got work. oh my tian... but its worth the sacrifice.

Monday.

Went down to recruit express after work to submit my timesheet. on my way home, found out my bro fainted in camp and hit his head. thank God he's all right now. but at that time, i just wanted to rush down to the hospital to see how he is. but i didn't know which hospital he was in. frantically called up people to find out but they dun noe.. but he's back at home the next day, so everything's all right =)

Tuesday.

After work. Went down to church for some leader's prayer meeting. =)) vanessa and francis too. first time justin invited me to attend. usually is i'll ask him if i can attend de. i really wanna know what's in the flow of the church and really come and pray for the church. was really good, pastor shared a lot about what to look for and pray for for the upcoming year. =)

pei en came back on this day too. by right i was suppose to fetch her, but suddenly justin sms-ed me about this prayer meeting, and yeap, i weigh the decisions and found that there were bigger things happening than we can see. I expanded my mindset to a whole new level where i begin to see it in the bigger things perspectives. =) where some things of life may seem big to us, but in our life, its actually quite small. On Giant's shoulder, ya? =) anyway, pei en glad that you're back. =))

Wednesday.

Went down to bible study after work. was good larr.. talking about the laying of hands. power, reverance. don't mess with it man. haha. met up with vanessa for dinner. 10 minutes dinner, den rush down to bible study haha. stephens didn't bring his bible and book cuz he didn't know there was BS until last minute, so i asked vanessa to bring a bible for him =) thanks vanessa. you're the best! had a good fellowship at long john with rongrong's cg.. valerie chua! and erwin! anyhow talk only arrr....... haha but was fun =D of cuz, samuel, really friendly and outgoing, and huihui and pei en. haha talked about love language, and got to know each other's love language =D hahahha.

Thursday.

Family day! after work. i realised the entire week i didn't spend time with family, so i purposely set aside time for my family on this day. was pretty amazing. installed my printer driver onto my com as well as cleared up the CDs in my room. found quite a lot of interesting CDs hmmm.. anywayz. was a good time spent with family lo. hahaha.

Friday.

went down after work to help Jon and Vanessa with the decorations. at first was suppose to meet Marilyn but den vanessa said that she meeting marilyn on monday, so ok lo, just join her on monday. but end up marilyn not working on monday.. anyway, haha. i think we didn't help much in the deco, i spent most of my time trying to cut out snowflakes which look really like ski mask. went home after that was really tired. but my mum came and talked to me heart to heart talk. shared with her my beliefs and she was impacted by it. wow huh. she's coming to my church christmas service on the 24th Dec. anyone wanna come? do let me know okie =) its gonna be really AWEsome!

talked to pei en also. late at nite. was crazy, also another heart to heart talk. =) shared the burdens of our hearts. greater things have yet to come eh? =)) believing with you for greater things as well as greater friends =)

Saturday.

morning til afternoon went to yuling house to teach yuling and zhinian violin. haha. was fun, haha thanks for teaching me to play the titanic zhinian. she got a perfect pitch, so any song i give her, i believe she's able to hum the tune out for me, and with that i can play it on my violin =) yuling was great too, she helpped me to teach her, though her violin background very limited, but she has been in music CCAs for since primary school le. so she's a great help to me =)

after that went down to expo early to book seats as well as to sleep. haha dun blame us we slept at 3 plus the night/morning before. =) yuling had to go early anyway to serve in choir. 4 o'clock we went in to queue. haha. 4 30 doors open. we ended up having to book seats for the whole zone, den rongrong got seats for 2 cellgroups i think, but anyway, left 3 cell groups with us at the back there. haha was fun to book for the whole zone. was a mad rush. was crazy. good that we didn't give the usher a miscount of the seats, else the usher will have to fill up and its not very nice. =) was super fun queuing with melina and zhinian =) haha i will never forget how zhinian will take out her handsfree set so that she can coordinate with her cell group haha. and melina, she's being used greatly by her cell group. i believe that she is one that will rise up through serving. =)

candlelight service was beautiful. one of the rare moments where cameras and photo taking is like, allowed, in the church =) it was beautiful =D awesome. and there's something more. gabriel, who was sitting beside me, appreciated me for being in the cell group! i just felt, wow, really loved by him =) oh kenneth came for the service too, and i hope he enjoyed himself. hope he'll come today for the cell group dinner =)

after service we went down to suntec to eat dinner. hahaha choose restaurant. haha actually wanted to go to soupdelicious (i think that's how it's spelt), but ended up going to food court. =) haha. was great. cell group fund. thanks gabriel for watching out for my finances. really glad you were there =) to give sound advice to me. really, your thots towards me means a lot to me. =)

we went MOF after that. i had an ice cream thingy i dunno what it's called, but i attempted to sound japanese when i ordered, and gab ask, you speak jap? hahaha. was fun there... hahaha koonpo arr.. the NTU lake? gunfires at nite? hahaha. and francis with his usually unusual humour. =D jon and yong cheun was there too! had a good talk with jon on the way to the mrt station, and yong cheun went to carrefour after MOF to get food for tmr. can see his passion for food, really overflowing in this potluck =)) just to let you noe, my dad already bought the chicken and ready to help me with the potluck, but i felt it not really nice to ask my dad to help cuz i'm only allocating an hour to cook, and he have to prepare and stuff without me being there, and its my potluck. so decided not to lo. and who can ever forget the two kenneth tan... =)) the two extreme man. one has long brown hair, the other really short hair. hahaha. and was really interesting. kenneth is going into NTU aerospace next year, same as huifen. =) maybe can get some advice from her =D

i went down to tampines to get my bike after that. had a great talk with liujing about the vision and goal for 2009 and how we want to shape our 2009 around, the central theme for 2009. =) haha yuling you look great today! no not saying that just to say, but seriously. you look good =)

haha. so there you have it. my week in a nutshell =)

not so much of a cam-warrior(for those not so sharp ones. whore-er. get it?) haha only 5 pics k? =D

hmm.. who says you dun look nice when you smile zhinian? =)

now see? =D

buddies! vann, jon and me!

niceee!! don't you think we all look pretty and handsome in here?

man.... i've got nothing to say. lol!

2008-12-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

ok! wanted to blog yesterday when suddenly someone called me. haha. in the end couldn't so ended up just typing that..

wanna say how grateful i am for people who are willing to stand up for me. strangers too! wow. =D Mrs Hendrite, from India, from my workplace. she really really stood up for me in the bus and help me "ding" when the bus uncle just kept hailing vulgarities at me! rawr!! thanks a lot! today finally got a chance to take the same bus with her again. we talked a lot! she has a masters in computing, and is also giving tuition. whoa i've got lots to learn from her man.. she gave me a few advises and really blessed me =D nice lady.

started teaching zhinian violin. and she's the best student i ever had. really teachable and humble and eager to learn. she really made my days. yeap, not just one day, but a few days. haha. my primary love language, she spoke it so well =)) and that made her appreciation really clear to me. =))

today my com was formatted! yay! no more virus! stupid virus, keep coming interfering with my com. i'm gonna keep my com virus free! =D

i just did a full scan on my com. no more virus after formatting. YAY! while scanning, i played the violin. and fell in love head over heels with it once again. its like, omgosh 1 hour passed so fast! i thot it was only a while, but well when you're in love hours seems like minutes. haha. loves! =D though i do not play well, i still like playing, and i will get better and better =) already first time playing in such a long time and i see myself improving by the minute. haha. happy =D

let's talk about sunday. 7th dec. we went out. hahaha. everyone was late. late meaning, not there at the appointed time. including myself ok. so in the end.. haha. but the movie timing was at 2 50 and we were suppose to meet at 1 for lunch. so yuling and me met first. den liujing came. haha. den jon and sis came. and den this is the funn part. damian and vanessa wanted to eat at home, but i missed them and really wanted to spend time with them, so i msg them ask them to come out lei. in the end they join us for lunch! yay! =) go watch bolt. its sweet and nice! =) anyway, had a good time at yamaha after that, really got to know a bit more about jon's sister =) she's really sweet. =) vanessa why never take pictures. so weird. usually she'll pop out her camera and say, take picture! but that day she didn't.. hmm wonder why. must be because of the specs? anyway, really enjoyed myself, hope you guys enjoyed it too!

packing room status - 5/7 done! only left the bags and cds to clear and touching up and we're done! =)) happy. slow but steady =D

loves.

2008-12-11T22:42:00.000+08:00

i miss all my friends overseas. i really do. why do the friends who go overseas has to be those closer to me? why?!?!

joelle, pei en, zec and ezekiel.. hmm..

WENDY TOO!! =D

2008-12-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

...and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him. 1 John 4:16

This morning had a mini argument about the small stuff e.g. breakfast, pimple cream etc.. hmm but at the end of it ended with a hug and loves =D)

also, fell asleep waiting for my company bus. in the end almost missed it. if i slept for 2 minutes more, i probably missed it le. haha..

need to cut hair. super long.

lovess!! =) byebye wendy. i will miss you. skype me! =)

2008-12-02T20:33:00.000+08:00

today.. another day at work. i felt so dry. its cuz of what i did. sadd.. disappointed.

butt!! haha. had a turning point in work. suddenly in the afternoon. i told myself. why am i so down and quiet. so i began to smile. and my countenance changed. i began to talk more, and began to be happy! =) that's the secret. it doesn't start with feeling happy den showing it. it starts with a smile, den feeling happy. feelings are a choice. =) choose life!

got to walk the path of purity. =) i'm gonna stay in the Spirit, cheerful and full of energy. gonna pray my spirit-man up.

anyways! tmr's my parent's anniversary!! =)) yayness.. going to 30 years le! and happily married. my dad's great! my mum's happy! i'm happy too. after what we've been through, this is indeed a miracle. celebrated today. =) dad's home-made chicken was superb. and my mum's just as happy as ever =D loves!

Jer 29:13
And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.

This is so true to me =) seeing what've been going on. =) yet God didn't leave me nor forsake me. i need more of Him. =)

2008-12-01T20:31:00.000+08:00

i feel so much better now. really have got to thank God =)

this morning talked about that same issue again. at about 5 30 in the morning talk until 6, den i had to leave for work. left the house with tears in my heart. prayed to God, sang worship, and was touched. den i realise. i can't change my circumstances, i can only change what i do. so i decided to practise now until i reached the previous std, and den go for classes. by then i shld be able to afford my own classes. i hope. i message them my plan but they didn't reply. but i'm going to do that in the end. actually my mum volunteered to give me money, but they retiring soon so i've got no heart to receive from them. so i'm gonna work hard and achieve my dream. really thank God for the turning point this morning.

another thing to thank God for. i manage to follow my budget for this month. haha i know. only one day. but its an achievement. i'm believing for a turning point in my finances. haha look how detailed my budgeting is, that i planned how much i'm going to spend on what for every single individual day of this month. and patience, discipline will take me through.

really, i was going through valleys in terms of my finances. cuz i felt really hopeless and desperate to get out of debt. really going through the valley. felt like it was never going to end. and on top of that, the violin thing. then last nite and this morning, God poured His love onto me. felt that everything was going to be all right. and that what made me see. whoa, indeed God is good to me =D that He comforts me in my darkest times. and cuz of that, i had these ideas. 1. to plan my budget in the day of the month rather than a month overview thing. and 2. the violin thing. indeed, insanity is doing the same thing and hoping for a different result. you wan different result, you've got to do different thing. and this is what i'm doing. details determine destiny. i'm going in for the details. =D Thank God for comforting me, at the right time, in the right way. =D

Psalms 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

2008-11-30T20:09:00.000+08:00

hurt.. haiz. esp when they're your closest people.

=(

i want to continue violin lessons but they dun let me. dun wan me to learn now. wan me to learn three years later. i ask why not now? they dun noe what to reply. what's the difference between i learn now and i learn three years later. i'll probably be more busy then right? with new job and all. why not learn now?!?!!

den they said this which really hurt my feelings. what's the point? so what if you master the skill? then what?

can't a man dream? i wan to play violin on stage and that's my dream. i wanna master my violin skills so that others can hear and benefit. i wanna be able to teach violin to others so that they can achieve their dreams too.

i have a hope so sure. an anchor for my soul. Jesus i trust You. i trust that You will make a way. i trust You... i have faith and i believe in You, that You know what's best for me and You'll let it happen. perhaps its not the time for me, but do let me know, so i won't be so frustrated, so angry. i'll wait, if you say so.

love, victor.

Worse is i'm sick now. down with a flu. hope i can go work tmr still. i love my job. i see it as serving my boss, not really as a job, and i do it with joy. can't wait to serve them again tmr =D

2008-11-29T07:50:00.000+08:00

i dun enjoy eating potatoes that enjoy being bbq-ed. what were they thinking?

anyway's she's backkk!! =)

ytd pei en charles jon wenlong debbie diana and kelvin and myself went to fetch her. haha spent more time talking on the train back with her cell group hehe. fun fun. =) i'm reading this book called the fine art of small talk and the techniques really works! you should read it =))

love

2008-11-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

3/14 of my room done.

going to get an album to organise all my cards properly

decided to listen to my dad and kept all my old stuff in a box.

encouragements will go into the album.

not gonna wait for the album. tmr i plan to do the bookshelf le =))

pushing all my bro's and dad's stuff to one side =))

the next day, will focus on the unused corner. =D and if got time, under the table

sat, going to continue from there. and den we're 5/7 done =))

2008-11-26T19:22:00.000+08:00

haha

asia conference.

activities after work past two days

seriously need sleep ++ had too much caffine in my blood.. =(

light headed and headache..

going to sleep soon.

tmr on leave =D good rest and btt. =D

2008-11-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

1/7 of project cleanup done.
just left 6/7 of my room to clean. =D

square piggy banks and gifts from friends. i've never thrown anything that anyone has given to me as a gift. ~~except the lazer pointer that my primary school friends gave me for my birthday.~~ but then again. i think its in my cupboard. hmm. i've still got the lego toy that janet gave me, the chinese swords that my bro gave me, the stars and seashells, the screen and laptop cleaner that jonathan gave me in last yr christmas, the bear and a whole lot of other stufff =)) i just read thru some of the notes that my friends gave me and am still touched by it. found one by janet given to me after A level prelims during one of the times we studied together. also had a few letters from different ones ;)

i never throw away any notes, even a simple one that says "thank you for serving". its from usher, last yr esther. a whole lot of encouragements given to me by friends =) i'm gonna compile it into a scrape book to keep it organise and easy to reach and read =)) the latest note i receive is by someone special =) its really nice and i really like it and am touch by it =)) thanks all for your words of encouragements!! =D and i love the gift zoe gave during my first thanksgiving celebration. =) photo with my name on it. wow. =D

harvey davidson wallet. chua but i stil using it. cuz its special to me. even if there's nothing left but the casing, i'll still keep it. =))